Yo it’s Matt here.
I’m DJ Romantech, I’m like uh a DJ from Auckland, New Zealand. This is my sorry excuse for a blog.
I make and DJ mainly liquid funk drum’n bass but I do lots of other music as well, it’s just mainly liquid drum’n bass out the front because it pays not to confuse people, only problem is now I’m confused myself because it’s February and I can’t say I’m entirely happy with the direction of things.
So generally, I spent a long time writing beats, being a crap DJ, promoting events, smoking lots of weed and getting into all sorts of shit which was a experience that had it’s own interesting rewards, but eventually I ended up broke and it was fuckin shitty.
If you ain’t got no money it is extraordinarily hard to rock any kind of style. Everything is a fucking mission when you’re broke, and ain’t got shit, so you got nothing to feel good about.
So at that point I had to get more into business, serious business because I am basically unemployable. I smoke drugs all day and I wake up and go to bed when I like. It doesn’t really fit with an employment schedule. I had a job once washing dishes. I have pretty poor social skills so that’s about the only job I could get. I had a couple actually, first at Verona cafe and then later at a place called “One Red Dog” in ponsonby.
Yeah that was like 8 years ago, I haven’t had a job since, they’re really awful. Always some prick there tripping out on something. It’s just a fuckin job, bro. You’re not paying me enough to care, and if it’s really making you so upset then they’re probably not paying you enough either.
So anyway, as it turns out, the voice in the back of my head was right, turns out that I’m not really that great at doing music. I knew that. But what I didn’t realise, was that just like when I was younger, before I started smoking up weed morning and night, I wasn’t too shabby when it came to thinking smart with my money.
I’ve always been industrious. But that doesn’t help if you are young and have no clue and surround yourself with fuckin retards, but hey, that’s just part of life’s rich tapestry of experiences though innit?
So now that I’m part way to getting on top of that, turns out doing business and making money is something I’ve been able to do, with a bit of commitment. A lot of commitment actually. For a long time I’ve been looking forward to getting back into my music just to have some form of self expression and prevent myself from turning into a complete square.
Money solves problems, don’t doubt it. But it doesn’t bring meaning into your life. If you’re a retard, it’s easy enough to buy happiness and become a fat rich prick, but any thinking person needs meaning in their life.
When I’ve been way down at the bottom, I’ve always held on to the fact that I can always chill and write my beats. As long as I’ve got a comp, I can make beats no matter what.
So I get pretty frustrated. Man, I work all the damn time now, and I want to start coming with some new shit, – afterall I have I spent the last two years working in music promo and marketing it’s not like I haven’t learnt a few things.
And first thing is you gotta come for real.
What’s the point hang off the fringes dipping your toe, that’s not what the point of being in music is all about. It’s about actually living it.
But really, you got to measure your commitment in order to make it meaningful or you’ll never achieve what you’re capable of. I feel like I got to bring this shit into focus. I got to see this picture as 1 complete composition, one view. It’s not just about business and music, it’s about everything I’m doing.
If it’s not part of the final picture then forget it. That means some of the things I’ve previously been thinking about and wanting to push forward with just ain’t gonna happen. I need to make room in my head and in my life to do the things I wanna do and live the life I wanna lead.
Y’know, I’m not some kind of musical/DJ/Producer big deal. I’m not sure I ever will be or whether I want to be. It’s important that I continue to be the guy who runs the businesses because that’s what I am. But I’m also a musician and I got to express that in a way that makes sense to me.
I’m hoping to start writig on this blog a lot more, or at least some more, to get a better vision of where I want to go from here.
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why use the word retard? you’re better than that.
It’s a turn of phrase, and I’m lazy I guess. When and if my blog becomes more popular I’ll probably try to be more thoughtful.