Hiii!
I’m taking it easy this weekend. Well actually no, there is Solar Series on at Tahaki Reserve in Mt. Eden tomorrow courtesy of Upfm you can tune in live
Taking it easy means I’m just feverishly beavering away on my business interests like a man possessed – makes sense there’s nothing really for me to be having an anxiety attack over right now.
Not yet any way.
Because I’m an addict. I can admit I’ve got a problem. It’s like this. I don’t have enough money, and I love generating revenues! But it’s a drag because workaholism can turn you into a square.
Some times I feel my corners taking shape, won’t it be great when I fit perfectly in a little box?
I mean what the hells going on. Where’s the 24 hour party like on TV?
Look it’s not like that. I have to remind myself. I have to talk to myself on my blog and shit, that’s why I do it. I don’t pursue my business interests for the sake of it, so I can indefinitely and perpetually pursue revenues and turn into some rich prick.
See, I just want to get it out of the way. Need the money thing, to not be really a problem, so, gotta sort it out. Then, I can do what I like, what I might rather be doing, and enjoying it to it’s fullest, without worrying about hoe I’m gonna pay for stuff.
But I am trying. Just been getting the Short Circuit DVD ready, and it’s bringing back some crazy memories.
Basically Short Circuit is all about the crazy tours I been doing over the last few years. We done about 7 tours in the last 4 years, about 50 odd gigs, It’s awesome shit. Crazy shit, but it’s awesome because it’s got great narrative, you know I’m ALL about narrative, and great characters, and I happen to be one of them.
To me, I’m getting excited right here because I’m getting deeper into exploring and developing and actually executing and performing narratives.
Don’t you know what I’m on about? I’m not a musician any more! I’m not! I’m not a DJ, I’m not a producer and not in any kind of role like that because primarily I’m about a narrative.
This isn’t a story about how wicked I am as a musician because really, I’m not. It’s about my character and how it fits into this DVD project, this platform.
I DJ and I produce and I create because it’s part of my story, if that’s the part of the story you enjoy, then good for you. My favourite bit is the suspense building whether or not I find out the truth, get the girl , and save the day.
Getting this DVD together is all about that archiving, which is really energising for me, it’s something I really want to get into because for me, I’m digging up all this evidence, all this research and connecting with where my heads been going to, and I’m pulling it all together.
Really energising.
Y’know? We travelled a lot, a lot of stuff happened, we had a lot of experiences with a lot of different people and there wasa hell of a lot of music. There was good music, and good musicians and people passionate about music, and there were crap gigs, and crap music, and awful musicians and people, and their personalities and their agendas and just basically . . . people.
And that’s what a story, what a narrative is all about.
Already I’m excited because I see themes coming out.
What I’m appreciating here is that we have this story that has aspects to it which can be given a lot of life, but we have lost a lot of our footage and our content.
It’s going to be hard to get the kind of result that I’m looking for, that I see in my head, and I know that but I’m excited to be building positively toward this, toward something.
It’s chance to reflect on some important stuff. What happened to the footage, where have all the memories gone? I’m never going to be young and fresh again like I was then, you’re reflecting on what you don’t have.
That sounds morbid and defeated, but it’s part of a story as well. It’s a story where I reflect on what I do have, what I’ve learnt, my experiences, able to understand now that just as I’ve failed in the past, I will fail again, and each of those failures is propelling me to that place where I can understand and reflect on the past and make sense of it.
And in the future, we’re going to make better choices, and we’re going to film more, and in making sense of it, and truly understanding it in a way that would never have grasped me when I was younger and still swept up in it, I am actually creating a more pure and refined art.
Y’know it’s almost as if I was never ready until now to move forward with what Iwas doing because I wasn’t old enogh to understand.
It’s like when I was younger, I was all about music, but slowly I feel myself moving into video and film which also embraces the writing I do. It’s like I’ve reached this point where I’m ready to face video knowing I can tell stories that I want to tell, and I’m going to need to rely on my music, not just my musical skills, but my musical identity in order to develop the kinds of performances, the kind of content I want to present.
