I am having a weird day which I am pretty excited about.
It’s like I’m sorting out a lot of concern I’ve had.
I totally blew a deadline, and didn’t care. I had to get up, but I slept in.
While I was sleeping I had a crazy dream, about a girl I met this year.
In the dream, I don’t know why I ended up in her house but I knew I was trying not to be caught sneaking around her room, surely enough her family started coming home and I started freaking out in fact, I wasn’t sure what bedroom I was in and was worried her little brothers would come in and find me.
Or her Dad.
So yeah she found me in her room. But it was all good. All I remember was that she was all good and she had deep rich blood red lipstick on and I woke up thinking how hot that was.
I decided to ignore my deadline. I went for coffee. I was feeling chilled.
At the cafe, one of my favourite songs they play up there was playing – Wayne Wade’s dubwise version of Lionel Richie’s “Lady” which is a great tune, great uplifting changes and melodic resolutions, just needed to be made more skanky at less cheesy.
But yeah, I didn’t feel like I was trapped, I felt like I could do what I liked.
Then I read about this thing about DJ qualifications in the Herald while I was having my coffee.
It kind of jolted me back. It’s ridiculous. Kids being “trained” as DJ’s – it’s a joke, like if you want to be a DJ, then just go do it.The most important stuff about being a DJ you won’t learn in a training course.
That kinda got my brain started again.
And then some pretty blonde gave me the glad eye, how’s that not going to improve your day, but I guess next time I actually have to talk to her.
So yeah, then I just rolled out and got on with my business, kind of mindlessly.
I just got this vibe like I can disconnect if I want to, I can take up in another direction where I’m chilled and can get on my own buzz, being easy with my tunes and being easy with the ladies.
That’s what I’ve been so uptight about, ironically, it’s that I know being uptight and worked up won’t help me flow with my music and with the girls.
Not being able to relax and disconnect from regular routines and business doesn’t help.
Thinking about it rationally and logically I have to accept that if I was having money problems then I wouldn’t have that opportunity, to suddenly turn around and say well actually it’s no thing.
Y’know, I’m not trying to be particularly rational right now, but it’s an enormous relief to feel as if all the frustration I’ve felt through the year – grinding and hustling endlessly – doesn’t have to dominate my lifestyle.
I don’t have to hustle and grind every day, I can “open myself to extreme possibilities . . .”
And that’s livin’
