Just eating the most ghettoest dinner. You starve yourself for a week and then you just crack and vacuum down fried sugar coated carbs.
So okay where’s the mix then? It’s the eve of my departure on tour for 3 gigs. I still have time to finish the mix. But instead I’m finishing this blog.
It was somewhat challenging.
I forgot to get cigarettes. I mean, as in the only reason I’m gobbling junk food is it’s wet and late and I now I have to go out again for cigs. Brilliant.
Time is running out. I said I’d do the mix – and just as I explored in an earlier post – because I said I’d do it, I haven’t. I said I’d do the mix.
I also talked about Romantech “gets touch love”. So y’know I say a lot of things that don’t make sense. If you follow. Man, these thought stream posts are the worst aren’t they? It’s total indulgent babble.
I need a cigarette.
So yeah, none of it really matters in the end. Am I going to look back and regret that I didn’t do the mix? What really matters? Well, none of it, you die.
Because death is a slow process of 1000 tiny battles surrendered because you decided not to bother.
Because it was easier to stop trying.
So what matters the most? That you do what you want. I don’t want to do the ix I’d rather just chill and take off on tour. But don’t you want to be recognised, and manifest and realise your art and all that?
It’s a challenge.
Finishing the mix was very challenging, hooking up my computer and mixer to record the mix and get a good sound. I had a lot of problems.
I only went through it twice and they weren’t that great. But hey that wasn’t the point. The point is to be a DJ, and to flow on. It’s the same with Dojo Inspectors. Let’s not fuss. let’s just get on with it.
Yeah and what about “Gonna Getcha”?
Well hell, if there’s another gonna getcha episode comng, let’s have it. (“Gonna” Getcha was a tune I did december 2007 that I was so excited and subsequently disappointed by, it really bummed me out)
I’m going to put Gonna Getcha up so people can hear how bad it was and feel my anguish.
But anyway. What’s the point putting out a bad mix that sounds bad? Same as doing a mixtape. DJ has got to DJ, you gotta do something. And people may say tough love doesn’t really have what some of my other mixes do – and it probably sounds just as bad.
I was thinking that about how all my mixes must have terrible sound quality so Tough Love will fit right in, Fit right in to remain as testimony in 2009 I still did some pretty ratty mixes.
I dunno. Life can be very demanding. But you gotta do what yiou gotta do. It’s about the journey they say. If I wasn’t disappointed with my DJing how would I get any better?
Do I want to get better or do I just want people to like me? Y’know? Do I think I’m the greatest DJ or do I just wanna do my thing?
Is a bad mix good promotion for the tour and the gigs I’ve got coming up?
PRO’s:
Putting out more content.
Continue the theme – I have 2004 mix, 05, 08, and an 09 would be nice to continue the set
Well timed to
Good Practice
Maybe I should just do it when I get back. 3 or 4 days big deal.
CON’s
A drag because I want to do my tour and then I should focus on my mixtape
Might be bad and make me look as if I’m not progressing
Looks bad that I still haven’t worked out how to get a decently recorded mix in proper stereo. Will anyone notice that y’know I don’t think any of my mixes are in true stereo? What’s with that? Shake my head.
Smh. s. s. ah-s ah-s, s it.
Goes double for retrospect.
But yeah.
But maybe if I say that I won’t do it either. But maybe it won’t matter; maybe it will and I’ll never know.
Dramatic, huh?
It makes sense, it’s pragmatic, and I’m always emotional. If it matters now it’ll still matter in 4 days. If it was meant to keep mattering it will, it’ll grow, it’ll find a new , , , hole?
it’ll be a new thing, or something.
