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Well i’ve just gone and got my shit like totally spec’d up.
Y’know, though the subtleties may not necessarily come through, a lot of frustration I’m experiencing is driven by the fact that I actually feel like I’m closer than ever to the things I’m striving for, which is not about this kind of girl or a tune that makes people notice because those may be goals but they’re end goals, they’re not goals that a moving forward to greater aims.
Or whatever I don’t know I’m just on my new laptop, got another new camera as well, don’t, just don’t talk to me about it alright it’s like this, I’m not just going to lurk cowering in a corner wondering of possibilities and what might be, deep down I’m pushed to drive forward, to leap forward and man the turrets and ready the cannons and hoist the main sail and whatever else, ship shape and bristol fashion, ready to sail boldly forth.
New technology means new capability and capacity. But it’s all about critical amounts of capacity and capability, I had to always asked how much my life would really change if I could write beats and work anywhere I liked, I had to ask if it was just some fantasy like a lot of people have where they’re at the local cafe supping their espresso and doodle dooing on their laptop like a tosser.
Well I got sick of asking and wondering because all I was thinking was well . . . what if being able to do y’know a good 80% of the stuff I do from anywhere, totally changed my life, totally changed what was open to me?
I can talk to clients
I can do basic online tasks
I can talk to employees and suppliers
I can write beats
I can do photoshop (once I find my copy to put on here)
And once I get skype I can communicate by calling people up on my skype receiver..
And as I just said to my mate here who commented how happy I look with my new laptop, ahem – mobile PC – I’m sitting up straight with appropriate posture here for the first time in 3 weeks since I left my desk at my office! New possibilities with mobile realities yo!
What if continuing to add to my freetime will just blow up into a increasingly critical mass of free time and opportunity that will allow new and unexpected directions and creativity to arise?
That’s what it’s all about. I don’t even have to go home to do my work, I can go anywhere, talk to anyone. I can get up, have a shower and walk out the door with my laptop ready to get it on at the caf, get the news, get my emails answered, follow up anything I need to know online, and well then what?
Chill somewhere on a vibe putting down a beat? Go to the spot where the vibes are at or where other game is on the line and stalk out my prey, knowing that any pressing business will come to my attention.
I imagine myself sending emails and dropping beats sitting on the bedroom floor of some girl I met the night before, y’know full on rock’n roll geek styles. Kicked back in the back seat of my beamer, droppin down the knowledge.
Out on the balcony of my place here overlooking k rd, leaning into the cacophonic soulless k rd vibe on saturday night, feasting off them and shitting out beats on their heads below.
I also have a new camera to ensure I have absolutely no excuses no to carry forth with my youtube business. With the laptop I grabbed it because I had to know that if suddenly the constant pull of going home to check my emails for new business developments and the ability to write beats anywhere without being caccooned at home would change my life.
With the camera I just got completely fed up dreaming about this youtube shit when it’s been going on for 4 years now, that I wanted to get on youtube and get my thing down. I actually checked out the best of Jono’s New Show last night and I was impressed, but strangely, unthreatened. It wasn’t incredible but it wasn’t bad either.
But . . . how much effort does it take to do what they do, film crews, writers, production, there is no way they could maintain that standard if it was just a few people working on it, that’s why I’m not worried. I’m a long way from maintaining their standard but once I can get a tight operation there’s no reason why it shouldn’t flow on.
I don’t want to be on TV. My youtube thing is all about an extention of my art, I determined that writing drum’n bass was only onne way and probably not the best or only way to express my art.
But yeah, before we get carried away . . . I’m really excited about what my laptop will allow me to do, I can feel it. There are possibilities for me that are exciting because, there’s so much I want to do, so much I can do, but I could never risk the onward flow of my business and the need to create a space in which my art can be born, space to focus on my music and let it live.
But also work on making the video process one of flow also, I’ve experienced flow in music and know I can open it up, it’s just a matter of forcing these circumstances to work so that I can also produce video prolifically when the circumstances arise.
