I was harking back to Odysseus the other night, the trials, the trials!
It’s going to be this huge long trial just to one day come home, to feel at y’know, like, at peace with my journey, dude.
Anyway I can’t believe everything that’s going on, even tonight repairmen are fossicking in my computers and clients are sendiing me grumpy letters like when will it end?
I just wanna make cash and tunes and roll in my new beamer. Did I tell you I got a new beamer? Yeah it’s pretty sweet. 17′ rims, tints, the works. Sweet.
I love it. I’m as shallow as, because when I rolling in my sweet black beamer with some deeep drum and bass playing it;s not like I’m 21 and I think I’m hot shit, I just feel okay, y’know, I’m not on a bad vibe, I can’t be, because I’m on my way. Wherever it is, wherever I’m going, I’m going there.
And I’m going for a reason so I’m getting to where I need to be. I guess.
But all sorts of problems with my arrangements, I’m holed up uptown right now, it’s like I’m the boss, no doubt, terrestrial bodies orbit my being and all that. It’s starting to come into focus. Maybe I’m richer in spirit and all that?
But anyway, I know the drill. AI tour, y’know all those soul destroying tours where nothing would go right, and then you learn. I think there’s all kinds of learning for me right now. Learning to quit with all these shortcuts. Quit going over the top.
I’m not going to stop trying to make drum and bass, I know that. Forget that. I’ve got to, that’s why I get so crazy over my computers, I gotta do my art and my business, I gotta move on with it.
If I can be rich I should be. If I can chase hot girls I probably should. But unfortunately, I have to make drum and bass, despite whatever goes wrong.
Deep down I’m a snob. You’re lifeless if you don’t live some kind of art.If was just rich and chased girls, deep down I’d know I was nobody, with no story. I wouldn’t really exist. I’d rather write a track that embodies the fact I work hard for my money and it takes time and effort to meet girls all the time, then be a frickin balla and have nothing to show in terms of representing what it means to live that life. Pretty much.
So gigs to announce for this weekend, i’ll put that in a seperate less far out post.
So I’ll just lie and say that I’m stoked at how all over the show things have been for the last 2 months because I’m super excited about how onto it I’ll be when I finallyput it all back together.
And I’ll be even older; but there might be a whole lot of mistakes I’ll never make and breakthroughs.
Taking steps. I’ve leaned into it. Keen for the breakthrough bro. I’m getting a mobile stick so I can go mobile just stuff like that, if it makes a difference in my life why not just go for it. If it turns out to be bad idea than whatever, it’s been like that recently, i’ve found out a lot of stuff, and in the long run, finding out now, knowing for the future, that’s what’s gonna matter in the end.
