Haven’t written on the Romantech blog in ages!
Battling in business, hard, I’m in the warzone. There’s been victories but it’s still an every day fight.
Beforeit was just grinding work with no chance of art to happen, now I’m in a paralysis as work has gone down hill and I’ve had to deal with just how shaky I built all on my foundations on, I’ve had a lot of pain trying to make sure everything wouldn’t fall around me, business and music.
There’ll be some changes for real, I’m not going to get over this quickly. Just going to have to go in a new direction, I guess.
I gotta start writing and putting down video to know where thats going to be. I’ve been feeling totally drained of creativity but I know I’ll be back on it, but I want to be clear in my mission and its outcomes.
I guess I’m smart enough to know thats how it will be so I guess I’ll be writing again to get there.
But I worry I don’t have to do what I was going to do and being a dick for the camera isn’t going to be my thing any more. Well it wasn’t really but I guess I kind of was like, well hey, I can be a dick. I might still be a dick but I want to see how it goes.
How do I see it?
Well I’ll start doing new beats, I’ll start filming random stuff, and putting it to the beats, and doing my blog and then I might get an idea for something I can do and then just do it.
I think thats what I’m about now, just putting it down, rather than being all precious about achieving something.
It’s all about making a concept happen right there, like I did with reality compound, but drawing music and video into the concept and the storyline.
As I said with my video, I’ll start with serious videos for kurb, and then get more subversive until finally i break my professional character and reintroduce my self via reality compound as the character from the videos made suddenly real. And music and a storyline will enter reality compound from there.
I think I want to start from the bottom, long suffering businessman who is older now and desperately trying to participate in business and hipster culture.
Thats why entering throuh serious kurb videos I can bounce off the first few videos as failed out takes, 2 or 3, before devolving somehow until the point an actual fully realised song is ready.
And it’s not stylistic at all, i’ll write whatever. The artist is romantech, and the show is reality compound. It’s not really ever explained – I’m obviously romantech, romantech is a dj/producer, music is featured as a major part of the show, it’s obviously my music but its not really explained that this is a romantech vehicle.
The fact that I am romantech is secondary to the narrative of matt trying to make it as a somebody in auckland.
It’s only in time I’ll do “music videos” that are more music than storyline, until then I’ll work on how the storyline can be supported by the music I have available, mainly electro/minimal style d’n b beds that will evolve to vocal numbers with crissendo’s etc.
I think there will be certain plotlines – modelling agency, tiger penis, the fall of myspace and I think I’m getting closer to where I can exploit the desperateness in that ricky gervais extras way – but a rollercoaster of high highs, being a player and an enigma to being a total reject and tryhard.
Not good nor bad, but someone who just wants to be accepted and loved.
I think it’s about people being flawed when they do the things they think will make people like them, that it makes someone so human just to strive to be accepted. But to also be dehumanised by the desperation for it, and how that itself maybe a symptom of our time.
See it’s working! The ideas are flowing! When I see myself as a character in a story it makes it easier to create the art. I’m not trying to say everything, I’m telling the story of a journey.
