So I’m going to keep writing. It’s part of my plan to kickstart my creativity again, while of course building up the momentum online that doing lots of writing tends to do.
Yesterday I was talking about how I am I totally going on a new independent direction – I’m not really discussing the circumstances around that, but I am saying I probably left it too long, but at least I have the luxury of being almost certain it’s the right thing, despite the challenges faced.
Man, I’m just loving being in my own space and doing my own thing. Yesterday I jumped straight into talking about carrying over short term goals for Microscope and the Haunted Garden concept, but there’s more stuff to be re-evaluated and examined.
I’m glad I’ve got ideas to get on with, I’m glad if I just pay to have my songs engineered, I’m glad if giving up is not an option even if I’m not really young and happening anymore, that my chance to be a young and happening producer with impact because I’m all so fresh and all that is over, it doesn’t mean I automatically have to give up, because I can’t give up, I just have to find new ways of negotiating the terrain.
Again the narrative comes into it because if I wasn’t a born natural in creating inspirational art, what led me to this point? Anything good that I produce now, if I even manage to do that, has to do with a long voyage of learning and analysis and calibration and course correction.
A lot of people wont care about that, and a lot of what I did in the past wasn’t really objectively that important, but its still part of the story and thats a major theme of the haunted garden. That unseen memories and ghosts keep calling you back. There is no future because its all echoes of the past ringing in your ears with each step forward you take.
So I’ll be working on hauned garden and microscope, and as I say with this blog, I want to learn to take stronger ideas forward with my newsletter and my videos. Some of the silliness of reality compound may be lost.
I want to do things, and I want to document them. I want to start not a band, but a team of long term collaborators. I’ll be doing Microscope and Haunted Garden regardless but I also might be inspired to get guitarists and singers and maybe even keyboardists on board for collaborations which are like some crazy Indie/Dubstep/Electro fusion. “Mature Fusion” I thought of today, but maybe with a solid hipster indicator, because you have to have some grasp on the kind of fusion that most modern alternative bands are creating. I don’t really get it, except that it seems to work, unlike in the past where most fusions sounded really bad.
MATURE FUSION / HIPSTER LEANINGS
Indie / Dubstep / Electro / Soul / Pop
GUITARISTS and SINGERS SOUGHT:
as LONG TERM COLLABORATORS for a very contemporary, 21st century music project. Hard working musicians focused on productivity are requested for this open ended project.
Maybe it’s about being in a band, maybe it’s about making a video about meeting other creative people and finding out their ideas, making some music with them as a soundtrack to the video.
Maybe even if I’m old or a businessman, it won’t matter, because I do my music and I do videos and maybe if I do a newsletter it will make sense but I’m not quite sure how yet, that’s why and what I’m writing about right now.
Going on about something being meaningful, and here’s a tip to make monney from your website. That doesn’t sound like it won’t be jarring in a newsletter so I guess I have to work it out. It’s just like the website.
The Romantech website will be a strange trail, a net, an attempt to capture all these variable strains from the past. The newsletter is about turning what I know into something that can functionally help people whether they’re into music or marketing or whatever.
Though, realistically, it will mainly be musicians with marketing leanings and marketing people with hip music leanings who probably get on my vibe. It’s a hard one, and perhaps the idea of doing a newsletter is actually hardest of all.
My first one was going to be about the journey forward from myspace as the deep catalyst for so much I enjoy and lok back with fondness now.
I want to tour again, I just don’t know how it’ll come together. It probably won’t be short circuit, but it probably won’t be matt’s intrepid journey. It’ll be a weird combo.
I think the mian point really is to get to work, and try and get back that myspace vibe where there’s actually people out there responding to what I’m trying to do. Once I start learning more about what the people like what I’m doing actually like about what I do, the more I can manifest something of value to people that will carry me forward in a way that I can be satisfied doing my own thing in a way that other people appreciate.
