I can’t ween myself off the teat, I crave the money.
Everything is crawling towards being done and resolved and I have to finally find out wether I’ve still got it in me to go on, or it’s just been an elaborate charade, oh, oh how I toil, how hard I work, if only I could be creative again?
ah, but it seems gone. I lost the scent on the trail, it’s gone, where’s the vibe, to keep it alive?
I don’t even want to be rich, it’s just making money seems productive and makes me feel at ease. And it was so how I was always going to end up. Outwardly seemingly fortunate, but just a mess otherwise, just unable to unfurl in any kind of roundedness or completeness to who I am.
I know how to make money though.
Except I’m running out of problems that money alone could fix.
I don’t want an Audi, that’s ridiculous.It doesn’t mean a damn thing, except maybe that I found something stupid to be proud of, rather than creating some real art or living out a real statement.
Making money is the easy way out.
I should be giving out relationship advice. Not that I know anything about relationships, but at least it’s interesting, broad, and if I had a blog I would eventually make some money.
I could become a regular Dr. Phil.
But I might be keen to hit the road. I often thought about it. I mean if in a year, I could keep my main businesses going, and work more on the net, I could take off.
I’d have to keep my house as I co-ordinated centre for doing all my physical work, having people come in there, and I’d have to come back every couple of weeks anyway, except if I extended to australia,
When I was on tour I used to think about the endless tour, how I’d have a room or an office like Micah does, in some other part of the country, probably close to palmerston north because I could strike out from there to different cities doing stuff on the road.
Y’know, I could play a gig every week, do pirates, and do marketing.
I’d take some cd and dvd duplication gear in my car boot, so I could whip them out and get to work.
I’d make friends and find places to stay, I could even run little trading networks, but also I’d be in town soliciting all the skills I offer, I’d let them know I could get printing deals sent out, targeting towns with no printers, or expensive printers.
Permanent tour, permanent hustle.
But if I set up a pirate show in a different town every week, I’d need 50 kids to pay $10 each to make $500.
Could I make a grand on the road a week, and still make a grand from my main business and
I know I’m still talking about money, but at least it would be fun, it would be an adventure.
Y’know once I spent some time out there creating a vibe online for my pirate stuff, music, and general marketings, I could build a reputation and demand for me to do pirate stuff and music, and my adventures could be on youtube since I’m travelling constantly, and constantly accessible in all these ways.
I reckon I’d build up a few choice allies from around the country who’d keep my vibe on.
I’d triangulate as well, y’know if I did get a variety of gigs within a 100km and a few days, I could try and hustle some extra gigs DJing or performing at a local venue – especially if I could build up venues, schools and business associations who would happily have me every few months.
I’m sure I’d make more money than I do now, but at the same time, there’d be accomodation and travel costs to meet.
I guess it’s that thing of getting a room for $50-$100 or flying / driving back to auckland, having shane pick me up from the airport and that costing something the same. If I have a gig in saturday in christchurch and a gig in dunedin the next thursday what do I do? of course I fly home for 4 nights. that still costs me $120.
It would be learning to find a way of balancing it out, but I’d have to accept that earning a grand on the road would cost me $500 a week in travel and accomodation.
