I’ve been time travelling out of concern for general purpose and direction.
But then you get the call up that somebody wants to sign your beats and suddenly life has meaning again.
It’s good. I said I wouldn’t talk any business talk here because I may aswell well blab positively and seriously, no one reads this blog. But it is a bit like the money situation in that you sit there going, man I wish I had some cash and my tunes were getting signed.
And then you do get cash, and your tunes do get signed and then yeah . . .
It’s a funny one. Because you realise what maybe waiting. More money. Better tunes signed. Then what?
It’s meaningless. It’s good, but I don’t think it really means much in the greater scheme of things. I still do what I do. I do my business to get cash, and I do my songs because it’s what I do. But I gotta keep on with my other stuff. My drama, my narrative. Having tunes and being happening doesn’t interfere at all, the drum and bass thing is an afterthought. Oh yeah, I happen to be this drum and bass guy, but y’know whatever.
Won’t drum and bass nerds and dorks get a freak when they see me on youtube.
I get to be deep and mysterious with more of a vibe, which is good. Or y’know, whatever vibe, there’s more of it, it matters. I am supposed to be a drum and bass producer and dj so it could maybe help if I produced some drum and bass. Or something. Haha.
Y’know, I said it was about lifestyle, the style of life, and living artistically. That’s what I aim to achieve. And I don’t think it’s that stylish to be working all the time trying to make money you’ll never spend. I don’t wanna do that. I just want to be secure in a luxurious way.
I don’t think it’s stylish to make tunes because you’ve got something to prove to somebody. Making tunes is important to my identity, it’s important to me that I’m not just so young entrepreneur guy who’s found a way to make money and that’s where the story gets boring. I make tunes because I’m not just this money making dude.
I’ve said it represents past experiences and moments of insight and realisation that strike you. That has meaning. My BMW has meaning. It says I worked hard and bought a BMW. But what does that say?
What does that mean?
I could so I did. Making beats hasn’t been so easy. Girls aren’t always easy to deal with either.
I’ve said it before, it’s easier to make money that art and get girls, so my efforts are lacklustre.
Disappointing. With a bit of encouragement and confidence, I am ready to make beats that people want to hear.
Who wants to be the guy demanding everyone’s attention? Forget that. Forget the attention economy, what about the real economy?
Does the fact I want to be a DJ help the real world? I only want to be a DJ to make sense of the real world. In my world, people wanted to express themselves. Beats had meaning to me, maybe because this is my short life.
There are greater mysteries and issues unresolved then can be bared and music is just one way of looking deeper.
But being who I am, didn’t I always see the romance in it, to be young and have art and drama and narrative in your life. Life. Style, that’s what it is.
It doesn’t matter whether you have a million dollars, or have a vinyl on a top label coming out, or have luscious babes fighting over you, you’re the one who has to live every second in your shoes, travelling through time, so you had better hope you can enjoy it.
I’d like to be the person I always wanted to be.
I’m getting there slowly, but I can’t really tell if I’ll get there in time, generally you can’t, you just have to try to make the right decisions. But maybe it doesn’t matter.
The time travelling bit is all about my overthinking and flights of despair and dread, but hey, that’s me. Maybe I could learn to just not. That’s what I’m hoping, y’know, I make money, I make beats, and you know what’s coming next for old romantech.
Hi de hi campers!
I’m getting nestled down for another weekend working on the “Dojo Inpsectors” release.
It’s true, nothing changes!
There’s plenty of other things I would rather be doing but hey. The one outcome I’m trying to avoid is y’know, when you put all this effort into something and turns out to be rubbish, well I’ve done that before, especially with my music, so this time I’m trying to plan well in advance and being smart.
Chance would be a fine thing.
supreme confidence
I guess I should say that I am lucky in the fact that no one is going to tell me it’s good if it’s not. No one’s going to be sucking up to me, that’s for sure.
Well there you have it
