The Maximizing explosions shoot is done! Just like that! So so good!

Everything went great, I just followed the notes I laid down here and worked up a rhythm. Of course at the beginning I felt I should have prepared better notes but I picked it up. In fact I think with the second scene I probably did way too many takes, but that’s partially because I left out a small bit of dialogue.

I didn’t end up doing a one shot thing, but that wasn’t an issue, I think I can work it and I prefer it to be honest, more cuts right now are my friend. I just feel I could have done something almost as good as I will have done today but without as many takes, because it was pretty exhausting.

My double chin did catch the light a bit which is a bummer, but only when my jaw drops down – otherwise I looked fine and quite a bit of the stuff I did was pretty funny really and that’s the most exciting thing. I didn’t look quite as handsome as I’d liked but, my funny expressions and facials were pretty good seeing I’m just getting back into the game.

I really saw the possibility there that what I did today is not that hard and the product will be probably pretty good – for what it is – I’ve earned the “being funny in front of the camera in a room by myself” badge. As long as I’m able to roll this stuff out, I think I’m going to pick up a little bit of traction. It’s way to crazy and silly that if people are like “this sucks”, well I mean, come on.

It’s like hamlet, it’s just me throwing down raw performance and between hamlet and what I did today I really feel like I’ve got it. Making money is easy, making beats is hard. Being funny on youtube I think deep down is something that is not going to be that hard for me.

Remember part 2 is the power master.

Now I have to pick the music. I really don’t like using drum and bass for background music, it doesn’t really work, but I still want to promote the tunes that I’m actually putting out and involving relevant tunes I’m doing. So maybe I can use the other bits of tunes like Weirdos and Dark Matter, and then I just went and made a 2 minute medley out of the intros of that and Low Key. You’ll barely hear it anyway it’s just I don’t know, a lucky charm.

A fraction of people who like my music will go “hey that’s the intros and breakdowns of Weirdos, Low Key and Dark Matter put together” or someone who thinks my videos are funny will say like hey man . . . who makes the music, I love it, can I buy it somewhere? Y’know? Those are my people. Those are special people to me, who are down with my work, y’know, my vision, as far as I’m happy to ramble about it.

So that’s good the music is sorted out because it kind of does matter.

Kurb Promotions Presents

A Reality Compound Production

Matt in “Maximizing Explosions”

MAXIMIZING EXPLOSIONS – NOTES

Hi It’s Matt Turner here from Kurb Promotions and I just like to talk to you today about some of the simply most amazing opportunities in online marketing and viral video marketing. The potential for expansive growth and opportunity for unleashing exponential development is increasingly maximizing the explosive wave dynamic long term results based outcomes, more blah blah

Are you sick and tired of your own head? Have you had it up to here with not being a superstar rock god sex lord power master, and just . . .

had enough of your own hand attacking you uncontrollably – well you need kurb . . . now!

Some of our clients are actually in extreme mortal danger due to their heads literally exploding with potential growth based opportunity strategies.

Send money now to end the suffering, end the heartache, end the natural shocks

Let them know we are not going to be silenced on this. We want online promotion and online content services, and we will not give in to these pirates, who are trying to steal our freedom, by shoving crappy overpriced web design, google search campaigns and content services in our faces like an insult.

It’s not fair. These other guys are charging way more and I can do a good job!

sobbing like petulant teen

over to manic repeating, screeching about the prices being insane

to declaring war on prices until it’s a violent smack down

Sad pathetic little plea for business

IMPORTANT INDIAN OUTSOURCED VOICEOVER

So after I walk offscreen for the final time I’m going to use the indian voice over. Obviously it will get harder to use the indian voiceover in a funny way but if we’ve got a funny idea we may as well use it sooner than later because there’ll always be more funny ideas.

Indian voiceover:

“please always from kurb promotions

thank you kurb promotions every time.”

MAXIMIZING EXPLOSIONS – BREAKDOWN OF SHOTS 1-4

- Starting normally
- going into abstracted nonsense marketing talk

- sick and tired protest marketer
- head explosions – send money now to end the suffering
- entitled young adult thinks that high prices and bad service is not recognising him and his feelings
- going insane (“crazy prices”)

- war on prices, assault on prices, massacre on prices – military strategy to defeat prices
- violent psychotic attack on prices
- sad businessman breaks down in anguish and mental exhaustion

- indian voiceover

MORE ON ARCHIVING?

You build a process here for your art – what you think happened, what your research suggests happens, and then the version of that that makes the best story.

We can do some voiceover stuff, I started to realise with all the writing I found and how I blog endlessly

I saw another girl today in the paper I used to be with, and I guess I can’t remember what was in the time machine but it was nice to see her all businessly orientated. It actually made me attracted to her outside the fact that most of my actual girlfriends are out of my league – that’s why I don’t have many and they don’t stick around.

Urban timelapse video for later on http://youtu.be/mYKA-VokOtA

Stop! Are you ready for the power master?

When the common person comes across my thing, they probably just see a random video, they don’t understand anything about the show, they just like it, somebodies told them about it or they were in it.

I want there to be a real narrative though because that’s what will connect people to it, that they start to get the story, then they want to see from the beginning.

And they see how lo-fi my stuff is they see the Steve video, and all I have to do is better than that, so they see a journey from where I am now to hopefully a more prolific future where I drop new videos every week.

I’m hoping once I’ve done some kurb videos I will be comfortable behind the camera again and keen to climb the ladder and do something more challenging.

Also, I have to recognise that it’s the space that’s allowing me to get into all this stuff. If I didn’t have the space, I wouldn’t have realised how little footage I actually have to use for my backstory stuff.

It’s okay to chill for now while I get ready to move forward with new levels of sustained energy. Recognising there’s a problem there is part of providing the solution and the way forward.

I’m best to do all my kurb and romantech stuff first, building up to it. My pirate stuff, because the pirate is another good angle to come in on.

Of course part of that narrative I’m drawing from there to here to beyond, is that I once was a ratty drum and bass DJ, and I got on myspace and became some fake kind of internet trainwreck parody, and then I got into business, and there’s as much to work with in my poor, obscure, yet meaningful past to the future where I work with insane artists on insane projects and my desperation is all the more amplified.

And in that, maybe it puts into relief a simpler time when I was just a loser DJ, just a loser drug dealer, just some loser wannabe on myspace.

I will build a Romantech archive, and I will do my best to recover the lost reality compound files

I just hope I have enough tatters to string a flimsy story together that will get this damn thing off the ground.

Just been having a bit of a funny old freak out over potentially lost Reality Compound and Short Circuit material.

There were a lot of problems along the road with losing footage, tapes going missing, computers, hard drives stolen, negligence, whatever . . . so what I have left is very skant as it is.

It really wasn’t that much of a big deal I guess but when someone remarks or reacts to my video stuff, I kind of respond by feeling a sense of wasted opportunity, which is not really something I can hang onto if I want to move forward, because I want to go to a bigger place, step up to a new level with it now, and I can’t be getting all excited just because somebody said they liked my video.

Creatively I have to push on, and push through.

But I have to be coming from somewhere too, I can’t just pop up out of nowhere at this stage without any evidence of the journey that brought me to this place I’m at now, because everything that happened with Romantech and Reality Compound and Myspace is all part of the story.

It’s not about reaching back to the past – but it’s about a series, a continuum, a story that has depth and background.

But when it comes to putting together the pieces of the puzzle, it gets me concerned creatively, how am I going to bring this together?

How am I going to communicate that important precursor, prestory, preface . . . this is like the Hobbit to the Lord of the Rings, I’ve got to be able to paint a picture of how it was and what happened before.

All the old vibes are dead aside from me still walking around carrying them with me, all that stuff happened years ago, but I wanted that to be part of the story, that I left Reality Compound behind to be the Kurb business guy, but still the vibe calls me back, and tells me there’s no point in being some rich guy and just letting go of everything that was once important.

And all those old storylines are waiting to be rediscovered, except, no one will remember, no one will care anymore, so that’s why I need as much evidence from the past as possible, to paint out that side of the story.

I mean the whole idea about Reality Compound is a story that is happening, that is unfolding – but I want that rich past to help me to define that. I guess that’s just part of the creative challenge, and it’s nowhere near as challenging as what I have to do now to bring myself back to the level I once was and then go beyond it so that people might care where it all came from.

I guess that’s the way I have to face it and deal with it, if there’s nothing to tell the story for me, I have to tell it – I have to bring it to life, documentary style, or kind of like a Lost thing where you see glimpses of the past that fill in certain narrative themes for the audience.

It’s not about what happened in the past – I mean there’s some really interesting stuff there about how I arrived at where I am now, but it’s what happens next, about my rediscovery of my purpose there, that is the story I’m now telling.

But in the story it is very much about relating to the past, but at the same time there’s no reason we can’t have new adventures, while introducing old characters, it’s very much about the tone of the narrative.

I guess even if I am freaked out that I have lost even more of the past, so it creates the incentive to recreate it to bring my story forward again.

Remember that even the original Reality Compound had a back story, which was loosely based on reality.

And now the new Reality Compound has a back story too.

But I guess whatever happens, in whatever ways I fail – including if I fail to bring “the way it was” to life – Reality Compound is the story of the little guy who wants to be a big deal, and we’ve all been growing up hanging onto these dreams, failure and humiliation, and then the redemption and resolution that follows is all part of the story.

If I fail to present the backstory then that’s just another failure, but a failure to embrace – as part of the new story, whatever the new story will be, because that’s what I have to worry about first.

“And in the meantime we try . . . try to forget that nothing lasts forever . . .

funny how it all falls away . . .”

I really like this how to be awesome Idea.

It’s pretty dumb but I like it because it’s kind of flash in the pan, I can do the free report, and 1 or more stupid videos.

I was up at the radio today feeling like I am not doing enough actual real stuff, no I’m not making highly relevant dubstep, I’m doing my stupid free report on how to be awesome.

creatively thats what I feel like doing. I’m sure if it matters I’ll feel like making beats again and if not then well whatever, people change.

I like the idea of my newsletter because I don’t like making an average wage, I hate it, that’s why I can’t get on with it creatively because I want to be making awesome money. That’s just how I am. So being outcome focused, no less, I keep an eye out on my needs, and my directives, in order to go about things in a way that seems natural for me.

Like getting a fridge, I got no fridge to put my food in. I just don’t some hulking great thing, just something I can fit in my beamer that will cost less than $100, I don’t want be spending my money on appliances and furniture, it’s quite boring, as I’m sure you don’t want to hear about it all.

I’ll feel a lot more normal once I have a fridge, but fridges cost money baby, and what better way to get a fridge than having a newsletter where I can just give out whatever in the hope that eventually somebody somewhere will buy something and

In fact I may aswell make turning my full marketing abilities on myself evcentually some kind of long term goal because I can see how it would all work it just that dark nagging reality that I’m just not that great.

Well not right now. I want to be awesome! I have been slightly awesome, but I think in reality I’ve got a dose of what it’s like to know you’re not awesome and I really want to step it up. All the way.

I want to be awesome. Ironically, I don’t know how, but I think that’s all part of the story.

The desperation, the craving. When a fridge and some new shoes won’t be enough . . . even a sweet Audi . . . you need do discover your own personal awesomeness!

Well . . . get the free report I say. I’m going to write it, then promote it. A lot of serious people might think it’s a joke. That’s kind of because it is.

But behind the joke is a grain of truth that is at the centre of us all, that we want to be better, but why, and for what end?

I wonder if people will be upset that it’s silly and there’s nothing about being awesome, or whether I only attract people who like stupid jokes. Whatever, as long as they buy me a fridge.

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Haven’t written on the Romantech blog in ages!

Battling in business, hard, I’m in the warzone. There’s been victories but it’s still an every day fight.

Beforeit was just grinding work with no chance of art to happen, now I’m in a paralysis as work has gone down hill and I’ve had to deal with just how shaky I built all on my foundations on, I’ve had a lot of pain trying to make sure everything wouldn’t fall around me, business and music.

There’ll be some changes for real, I’m not going to get over this quickly. Just going to have to go in a new direction, I guess.

I gotta start writing and putting down video to know where thats going to be. I’ve been feeling totally drained of creativity but I know I’ll be back on it, but I want to be clear in my mission and its outcomes.

I guess I’m smart enough to know thats how it will be so I guess I’ll be writing again to get there.

But I worry I don’t have to do what I was going to do and being a dick for the camera isn’t going to be my thing any more. Well it wasn’t really but I guess I kind of was like, well hey, I can be a dick. I might still be a dick but I want to see how it goes.

How do I see it?

Well I’ll start doing new beats, I’ll start filming random stuff, and putting it to the beats, and doing my blog and then I might get an idea for something I can do and then just do it.

I think thats what I’m about now, just putting it down, rather than being all precious about achieving something.

It’s all about making a concept happen right there, like I did with reality compound, but drawing music and video into the concept and the storyline.

As I said with my video, I’ll start with serious videos for kurb, and then get more subversive until finally i break my professional character and reintroduce my self via reality compound as the character from the videos made suddenly real. And music and a storyline will enter reality compound from there.

I think I want to start from the bottom, long suffering businessman who is older now and desperately trying to participate in business and hipster culture.

Thats why entering throuh serious kurb videos I can bounce off the first few videos as failed out takes, 2 or 3, before devolving somehow until the point an actual fully realised song is ready.

And it’s not stylistic at all, i’ll write whatever. The artist is romantech, and the show is reality compound. It’s not really ever explained – I’m obviously romantech, romantech is a dj/producer, music is featured as a major part of the show, it’s obviously my music but its not really explained that this is a romantech vehicle.

The fact that I am romantech is secondary to the narrative of matt trying to make it as a somebody in auckland.

It’s only in time I’ll do “music videos” that are more music than storyline, until then I’ll work on how the storyline can be supported by the music I have available, mainly electro/minimal style d’n b beds that will evolve to vocal numbers with crissendo’s etc.

I think there will be certain plotlines – modelling agency, tiger penis, the fall of myspace and I think I’m getting closer to where I can exploit the desperateness in that ricky gervais extras way – but a rollercoaster of high highs, being a player and an enigma to being a total reject and tryhard.

Not good nor bad, but someone who just wants to be accepted and loved.

I think it’s about people being flawed when they do the things they think will make people like them, that it makes someone so human just to strive to be accepted. But to also be dehumanised by the desperation for it, and how that itself maybe a symptom of our time.

See it’s working! The ideas are flowing! When I see myself as a character in a story it makes it easier to create the art. I’m not trying to say everything, I’m telling the story of a journey.

Oh man  I saw some twitter marketing thing on the news last night, how depressing.

What about the days of myspace when it was dangerous and sexy. Twitter is full of nerds. Dweebs. Squares.

I’m not into their marketing tip, even though it’s kind of my game in my business, I’m like, nah. Too many nerds, and they bring down my vibe, I’m serious.

I’m trying to elevate, trying to ascend, and I don’t want to know about all these nerdish dweebs and their vibe it’s not my buzz, it’s not what I want.

This girl says to me she saw my videos on youtube and I guess I’m like yeah sure, god.

Y’know, depressing, where did all the vibes go. Yeah okay, I realised it was not real enough. I couldn’t carry the game, so I had to regroup and prepare. And now I worry deep down that I’m past it and regret when some girl says she saw me that I never picked it up and took it all the way, and yet isnpt that ultimately the goal I’m reaching for?

My narrative, to take my camera in hand and paint a picture, and write a song that belong with it and it’s all a story that tells of how things were, are and can be?

mmm. That’s why I refined my character. That’s why my past as a myspace guy will be a part of my new character but not as defining.

But I reach for that old myspace buzz where people were paying attention, peoples behaviour hasn’t changed but the channel has changed, and I can’t find it, and I hope I haven’t changed, I don’t seem to have that crazy energy any more I wonder if I can find it when the red record light switches on.

And creatively I have been obsessed with bridging from myspace to what I’m doing now. Yes, the key plot is I have reinvented myself as this kind of business guy, and I just happen to be a DJ, this DJ Romantech who makes drum and bass.

But the call of myspace is too strong, amidst my crazy schemes to get rich and do my mad marketing the legacy of myspace calls me, I could be somebody, and I so desperately have a story to tell, and deep in my heart I long to rediscover all that was pure and innocent in a fantasy, in a girl, and that is a story.

All very dramatic isn’t it.

But yeah, the bridge. I think the bridge is an unacknowledged element, that as I push forward with my notoriety, deep down it nags my character that I don’t have the girl, and harking back to times past.

I am going to be heading back to kingsland to film my masterpiece! That’s what that space will be for, so what am I looking to develop in the new reality compound?

The kurb marketing buzz

The auckland pirate

The modelling agency

Girls

Short Circuit

And of course the myspace stuff which is the legend of the tiger penis.

What of the Tiger Penis. “Don’t talk to me about tiger penis.”

Speak not of the tiger’s penis and it’s terrible power! The tiger penis is the secret intriguing storyline, where I might pay tribute to Mr. Asia, of course it will become apparent that tiger penis is a code for something, but exactly what, no one knows.

Just that it’s uncertain, shady and lucrative, so you’re going to see me conflicted in my quest for the powder, which will sway from literal to metaphorical without explanation.

This will be the platform also to reintroduce myspace as myspace and tiger penis stories are tied in at the root, so the tiger penis will be associated with a better time where perhaps I wasn’t as wealthy but I was a cool myspace guy, and many different visions of the past call me back to better times, hopes for better things than simply becoming rich and powerful.

And the music tells these stories.

so lots of stuff, y’know girls, tiger penis, and some of the other stuff I planned, will depend on what’s available, but really I just need to set up my platform, the intro of a few episodes, the pilot episodes that tell the main story, so then I’m actually free to add random stuff, and only advance the storyline once a month if I need to.

But what is the main storyline? The saga of the tiger penis, girls, and my desperate need for recognition that initially will be revealed mainly through kurb business, but as I become more established on youtube, getting back into the celebrity baiting

Short Circuit and bridging over to that would be part of the next step too, i know once my platform of pilot episodes is established I can begin bridging over to that and bridging over to romantech stuff, but for romantech I might just add random videos of me djing and not even explain anything so it’s just basically this unexplored statement that I am a DJ.

Also the modelling agency would provide regular fodder, pretty girls in weird situations. I just need lots of regular stuff I do, different character sketches, so I can slip story in between it.

Graham is a sketch I can do, and also the older details of the quest for the tigers penis, trips to the butchers, asian marts, oh and of course the debt collecting I was gonna do.

We’ve got our characters, jailbait, sweatshop, Ian, Graham so again it’s kind of like . . . just focus on building the bridge, establishing that platform and then seeing where it feels comfortable going form there, I might decide to focus on the music side of it and just be really freestyle and abstract.

Well the ultimate aim is convergence. I just always figured if I was only worryinag about one thing when I woke up every morning it would be alot easier to get my job done.

The fact that I’m in business is actually a statement about the natural role music plays in life, that I’m a marketing guy and a business men, a bachelor and a DJ and a Pirate, and yeah I just happen to make videos about it and in the videos are a lot of songs and performance which I am fully or partly responsible for providing.

I guess the first step after launching would probably be looking at how I could minimise my personal commitment to parts of my business which were going to be that interesting on the show.

So while maintaining an income I can start withdrawing from day to day business and more into the show.

So firstly being able to work on the show – and music for it of course – basically full time would be the first aim so I could seriously look at producing weekly segments.

That could involve me taking a pay cut but I;d just have to measure out the viability of that. Y’know the last 3 years for me have been about the fact that I was tired of trying to do or be anything without any damn money.

So then getting into the show more, I would be building with a mind to perhaps as I said converge, and draw income from the actual show which would supplement my income on top of the small salary I’d draw from my business despite being pretty much uninvolved at that point.

How would this be, making money from a dumb lo fi regular video segment with somewhat average undeveloped songs?

Well firstly, the show is about me primarily, so there’s no need to shy away from using the show as a vehicle for my marketing clients who I would look to feature strongly in the show, in fact that would be one of the main ongoing themes, the different clients involved.

Hopefully as the show grows over the years, there will be a tipping point where clients I more interested in getting exposure throught the shows channels then the actual involvement of my marketing services per say.

That will green light me to start pushing the show as a branding platform for other partners.

Of course, contributing my marketing and promotions skills I would have already built about a number of brand assets including a website/blog, mailing list, etc. that can bring extra value to a sponsorship arrangement.

The idea is to produce a lot of content so you’ve got regular video content which is free, the songs as they appear on the videos are also free, which promotes maximum viral marketing exposure, but above and beyond that, you gonna be repackaging content hard into content products that you can sell.

And then there’s the branding of me as an artist itself which means I can also hopefully get gigs and do tours off the back of it, making the show from the road, and or getting the opportunity to be present for certain stuff.

Romantech lives happily ever after?

And of course it’s not just about the one sponsor who’s going to come in with the contract so that I can live the life I’ll be accustomed to and support the show to a high enough standard, because this stuff is completely transparent y’know I can sell one off mentions for $500 etc.

The show is about a marketing guy who is a musician and a dreamer so yknow . . . to me stopping the show to sing someone happy birthday for $500 or carry out weird requests like dedicating the weekly song or even adding subject matter to the weekly song, all interactive elements such as these are open to provide revenue once the brand is strong enough.

The other plan of course – the outside chance – is that I do get to a standard that I can partner my bit as a segment of another, larger platform.

But yknow if V comes in ( I always imagined frucor coming in with a V sponsorship because I drink it all the time anyway) and offers me 6 figures to become the ever present sponsors then I’ll be happy having sold out,

However I would like to work with a large brand that understood that edgy stuff has the opportunity to break new ground for their brand and that I’m safe hands in terms of creating something truly edgy but not unappealing or unappreciated by a general audience.

And that’s really as far as I can take it, I’m sure by the time I’ve got a full time job producing ongoing webisodes about myself while collecting from my business on top of it, and blogging etc., I’ll be ready to put the feet up.

As I get older, my inability to tell a “young” story would be a weakness in connecting to younger and more vital audiences especially if it ends up I do settle down with a cushy job just doing the show but not really to worried about continuing to develop it and push boundaries. Then it becomes about other characters coming into the fore.

My idea was always that because I needed to find good singers, singers would come in and out of the show in different roles, and strong performers would build their appearances into becoming a more integral character within the shows developments – having their own subplots/segments to even giving me a week or two off by having whole segments devoted to them.

Of course it wouldn’t have to be singers and this ties in with my personal branding company ideas for the future, bringing all kinds of characters to be developed, included and then possibly even spun off so that they became their own node producing weekly narratives and songs etc.

So that way the show moves from being about me as the protagonist to being more about my stable as a budding and revolving ensemble and the characters and performers I’m developing or rearing to use my strategies – whether or not it starts simply that they are my clients who have paid for the privilege, to a more advanced point – 10 years from now even – where we actually discover and develop talent in this way.

By the time I’m in my 40’s I think I want to be moving on to full length features. Or basically making pieces that are narratives within themselves as individual projects, by that stage I may not be even appearing regularly in my own show, it will be more about talent in general coming out from under our development and influence.

This way the very same show – whether it’s still Reality Compound or Kurb or whatever – will be used to develop talent just like I developed my own talent and turned that process in on itself, and then I can pick out talent to come through into featured appearances in the individual feature projects.

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I used to have a diary in school. I thought I’d want to remember.

When I finally became part of the cool group when I was 15, I used to write in my diary about all the drinking and teenage bullshit. But more often then not I only wrote in it when I felt angsty, so reading back over it just made me feel like my life was fucking depressing.

Let’s hope this blog doesn’t head that way!

So now, even though things are going well, I still have to write the damn thing. Work is paying off again now, I seem to be making progress. Progress towards that point where I’m not slogging any more, but I’ve had some big breakthroughs recently so I’m looking forward to that time I can live the lifestyle.

Don’t really wanna be writing on some blog when I’m on a energy high. Gotta make dat hay.

One day when I was about 23 I was at this party with my girlfriend and she introduced me to this chick who had moved into a flat after I’d cleared out – probably I think after some drug shit, so she found some of my stuff, including my diary.

She’s read the whole damn thing so needless it to say it was a buzz out.

I’d planned to go get it but it was something I just didn’t do.

Somebody had my intimate thoughts, my wildest unself-conscious  ramblings.

But now I have this blog so I guess it’s all on.

Here’s my story:

There was a piece of delicious vegan lasagna which had me reaching for the grated cheese, and now their ain’t.

There was a girl involved, then I went into town and got drunk.

Playing a free party this sunday at Fu, sounds weird, but hey, it’s free and A-Sides is playing.

Then wednesday, first gig at Lot 44 right up top on Ponsonby Rd, downbeat syndrome with the beat dungeon group.

Hiii!

I’m taking it easy this weekend. Well actually no, there is Solar Series on at Tahaki Reserve in Mt. Eden tomorrow courtesy of Upfm you can tune in live

Taking it easy means I’m just feverishly beavering away on my business interests like a man possessed – makes sense there’s nothing really for me to be having an anxiety attack over right now.

Not yet any way.

Because I’m an addict. I can admit I’ve got a problem. It’s like this. I don’t have enough money, and I love generating revenues! But it’s a drag because workaholism can turn you into a square.

Some times I feel my corners taking shape, won’t it be great when I fit perfectly in a little box?

I mean what the hells going on. Where’s the 24 hour party like on TV?

Look it’s not like that. I have to remind myself. I have to talk to myself on my blog and shit, that’s why I do it. I don’t pursue my business interests for the sake of it, so I can indefinitely and perpetually pursue revenues and turn into some rich prick.

See, I just want to get it out of the way. Need the money thing, to not be really a problem, so, gotta sort it out.  Then, I can do what I like, what I might rather be doing, and enjoying it to it’s fullest, without worrying about hoe I’m gonna pay for stuff.

But I am trying. Just been getting the Short Circuit DVD ready, and it’s bringing back some crazy memories.

Basically Short Circuit is all about the crazy tours I been doing over the last few years. We done about 7 tours in the last 4 years, about 50 odd gigs, It’s awesome shit. Crazy shit, but it’s awesome because it’s got great narrative, you know I’m ALL about narrative, and great characters, and I happen to be one of them.

To me, I’m getting excited right here because I’m getting deeper into exploring and developing and actually executing and performing narratives.

Don’t you know what I’m on about? I’m not a musician any more! I’m not! I’m not a DJ, I’m not a producer and not in any kind of role like that because primarily I’m about a narrative.

This isn’t a story about how wicked I am as a musician because really, I’m not. It’s about my character and how it fits into this DVD project, this platform.

I DJ and I produce and I create because it’s part of my story, if that’s the part of the story you enjoy, then good for you. My favourite bit is the suspense building whether or not I find out the truth, get the girl , and save the day.

Getting this DVD together is all about that archiving, which is really energising for me, it’s something I really want to get into because for me, I’m digging up all this evidence, all this research and connecting with where my heads been going to, and I’m pulling it all together.

Really energising.

Y’know? We travelled a lot, a lot of stuff happened, we had a lot of experiences with a lot of different people and there wasa hell of a lot of music. There was good music, and good musicians and people passionate about music, and there were crap gigs, and crap music, and awful musicians and people, and their personalities and their agendas and just basically . . . people.

And that’s what a story, what a narrative is all about.

Already I’m excited because I see themes coming out.

What I’m appreciating here is that we have this story that has aspects to it which can be given a lot of life, but we have lost a lot of our footage and our content.

It’s going to be hard to get the kind of result that I’m looking for, that I see in my head, and I know that but I’m excited to be building positively toward this, toward something.

It’s chance to reflect on some important stuff. What happened to the footage, where have all the memories gone? I’m never going to be young and fresh again like I was then, you’re reflecting on what you don’t have.

That sounds morbid and defeated, but it’s part of a story as well. It’s a story where I reflect on what I do have, what I’ve learnt, my experiences, able to understand now that just as I’ve failed in the past, I will fail again, and each of those failures is propelling me to that place where I can understand and reflect on the past and make sense of it.

And in the future, we’re going to make better choices, and we’re going to film more, and in making sense of it, and truly understanding it in a way that would never have grasped me when I was younger and still swept up in it, I am actually creating a more pure and refined art.

Y’know it’s almost as if I was never ready until now to move forward with what Iwas doing because I wasn’t old enogh to understand.

It’s like when I was younger, I was all about music, but slowly I feel myself moving into video and film which also embraces the writing I do. It’s like I’ve reached this point where I’m ready to face video knowing I can tell stories that I want to tell, and I’m going to need to rely on my music, not just my musical skills, but my musical identity in order to develop the kinds of performances, the kind of content I want to present.

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