I got some videos for you. What’s it about? Well y’know,

Okay so you got like the spaceman from the other dimension, and the preacher guy who does exorcisms, and the puppet hipster dude. The spaceman is out there exploring, he’s aucklands most wanted. The preacher takes to the streets, a mad man protesting and banging his bible, he’s a mad spiritual crusade, don’t forget we roll with hamlet and don quixote in pyramids with aliens (kind of). Pirate Matty sets sail on his journey.

Episode 1 must intersect this at some point.

The journey is in sound. It’s about ideas that accompany the music. But there is the story, the storytelling of the narrative represents themes that are being brought to the surface. Things as the have transpired need to be understood in some way. Or we’re just being expressive and working towards some kind of form.

Y’know but you need to be more clear what weird dumb videos do. Well, they express ideas don’t they? That’s where the story is heading to. The spaceman realises he is not the spaceman, I mean space captain, and the preacher is on a crusade, I don’t think he’ll ever come in. Is he american?

He’s just this crazy cultist. Basically getting caught up in his own propaganda that was originally supposed to be a scam. He’ll be guruing out hard. He might not come in. The muppets thing might be shortlived. It could be pegged to Matty’s fun time or whatever. A list puppets at work and play. I’m just wondering if that just moves on to the puppets kicking off gazestep movement.

Can we converge with pirate matty? Well in a completely abstract and non arbitrary way. If one minute it’s matty’s fun time and the next it’s pirate matty, who need mention? What mention does there need to be of Lord Jonathon and Pirate Matty? It’s various levels of awareness.

Maybe it plugs in the anti reality show – rather than a reality show that is scripted but pretends to be real, reality compound is real but pretends to be scripted. Every character is me playing a character, sometimes i’m in character and sometimes I’m not.

There are parallels between the pirate and the space captain who both leave in search, do they both lead, and the preacher lead, to the choice matrix?

At some point RC are going to launch their modelling agency. The legend of the powdered tiger penis must rise and is there a connection to the space captain having revealed clone identities, crazy cult dudes, and a weird pirate?

Once I was this dude who was a dubious trustafarian bottomfeeder working in the music industry who then constructed this fake band on myspace then became some kind of brand guru and went off the deep end on drugs. This was romantech. The space captain is romantech. Does he go round committing cultist acts without knowing? Really?

No of course not they’re not schizophrenic clones, they’re this one guy trying to do teh funi on youtube. He’s got characters, a pirate, a crazy preacher, a hipster gazestep puppet guy, oh and of course the powermaster and all that. Where do they fit in.

Episode 1, business guy trying to do business man thing, but can’t ends up drunken pirate. In episode 2 there is a girlfriend and model search. In episode 3, the tiger penis caper begins.

Now it gets a bit thin, which means we need music stuff to push the content until we know otherwise. But we know where it’s heading. The big picture I think, I see, and we can actually be quite upfront about this, a string of dr. who like girls or some kind of twisted equivalent, where I’ve got some girl trailing me who is dumb enough to believe I can make her a model. Y’know, this is reality compound, it’s no longer about some dude who pretends he’s in a band! It’s about some strange business guys misguided quest for acceptance.

But let’s review that girl connection and other characters, because we need a fairy for the pirate. Maybe puppet guy could have a deep gazestep romance. I’m getting this vibe there too, in the beginning it’s always the kids show with voices, then it goes to the after dark bit and it’s gazestep with subtitles.

kids show puppets wont stay in character – club scene

forming a band yay – gazestep out

girl involved – romance step gazestep

The preacher doesn’t need a girl, he’s insane. So we’re consistently looking a girl to be tiger penis assistant huntress, fairy and gazestep love interest.

But eventually . . . I just happen to be DJing more. I actually begin to make it happen for the models and that is a crucial point. So what happens after that is those characters start taking more focus, and what happens to me? I’m other character in the background, reality has shifted again.

LIST OF IDEAS AND CONCEPTS FOR UPCOMING VIDEOS

Pirates

powermaster
preacher mathias Myspace sermon
Noob eats new beats/Home alone
Last transmission
Aucklands most wanted

penfacing
matt’s happy time

RC1
Lil titty ad #1
Jumjar ad
Purple cow
Rc sports

Good discussion coming through going deep on the narrative / storyteller vibe.

How do I put this in a nutshell? A story is anything that helps people understand something, and a lot of my creative stuff is about trying explain or understand. Looking for understanding and meaning. Now that I recognise that and the power of stories to carry knowledge from before we had writing, so I comprehend the abstract ways we try to tackle a grasp of environment in conceptual ways, in music, weird videos, blogging – stuff that I do.

Because if I was all about getting rich, guess what? I’d have no problems, I’d just get that money, but unfortunately enough, I don’t seem to be into it. Girls, also, awesome. But you can tell in my behaviour, girls can be a lot of problems.

Maybe I’m being too cute here but I’m just saying, a lot of different people are about different stuff, some guys like money, some guys like girls, some guys like just one girl, most normal people have an even spread and that’s what makes them normal. Some different people like some really different stuff, they’re not so normal.

Me, as I was saying, I identify as a storyteller, because a lot of my behaviour shows I’m motivated to create some kind of narrative, and I’m expressing myself more so now by attempting to understand, that becomes a search within itself, and so it bears this concept of the missing space traveller exploring earth.

That’s when you go deep when you’re just riding your imagination and narrative skills into a dense creative space, you’re not really attuned to anything except the purer projections of your subconscious. Deep representation, exploration and deeper development of understanding.

But I wanted to know about this storyteller is it about having people care about the story? What about Evil Robot, that IS the story. No once really cared, but so what? I was on the vibe. I put it down.

That’s what I’m talking about when I’m a pirate or a poster paster, I’m alive! I’m out there, I exist, people know of me? Is that not wanting validation? I don’t want validation, I just want to be able to do my thing. Tell my story.

Or well, tell A story.

It doesn’t have to be me, it’s about understanding. Deeper vibes. That’s why I avoid people a lot because they’ve got too many vibes that aren’t real! This was where I was firing before, I don’t want to dick around. I want to be getting into creatively and creating energy there, not having some ongoing situation caused by social dynamic.

I don’t like people interfering with my flow. I don’t need to hear any negative ideas about why some guys life isn’t perfect right now.

I’m just trying to do the best I can to open my mind and my soul up to the flying pyramid and journey deep into the vibe, I can’t do that if everyone is being a dick!

So it becomes a story, about a guy who only makes up stories for himself, who cares about my stories, what does it matter anyway? What does it matter except that I be, and in being, I do a blog, and a video, and a beat. And nobody cares?

Well if you don’t depend on it for money, who cares who likes it? What are you trying to do? The best work you can, because you’ve gone deep into it and come out with something very real, it’s only more likely that the work is of value to others. But it’s not the point, the point is you do the best work you can.

No, the point is you go deep. You don’t care. Why advertise? Why have a good website? So people will like you? People will like anything.

Because you want to open up opportunity? Every opportunity is available to the exceptional artist who produces exceptional work.

Videos and songs that I do are important I guess, I mean that’s why I started this blog – because I wanted to be a guy who writes a blog because I do music and videos even if I don’t actually write about music and videos all the time it’s kind of all part of the creative experience of existing and creating and being about that.

But we have to get back to our guru stuff also because it’s a little bit weird when you’re trying to do songs or videos but you keep disappearing down these metaphysical rabbit holes.

Actually now I’ve been working hard as well as working on music and videos so I don’t know – I think I may have made some progress in being more conscientious, or just having the dual focus of working not too hard, not so hard that you lose day to day focus on more creative stuff, it’s awesome, I’m making money and I’ve got new music and new videos in preparation, I’ve managed to get them both under momentum . . . and thus why we’re not updating the blog so rapidly.

I gave up sugary treats as well which was good. The main point there is in realising you don’t actually need the thing. I the only reason I wanted chocolate, was because I was a chocolate eater. Stop eating chocolate, you stop wanting chocolate.

But more gurucore vibes are waiting to spring up because y’know maybe I write songs and do videos and stupid blogs but I’m like a philosophical and intellectual explorer. I’m not an expert, I’m a journeyman really. Writing 100 blog posts about abstract philosophical and life shit doesn’t mean I know that much, but enough to keep going because I’m making progress I just wanted to look over that stuff.

The rest of this post is from before the tour when I just had too many philosophies and ideas bubbling up and I knew eventually I was going to have to get back to this stuff, ribbon farm, ricky raw, even the chateau have been publishing stuff worth going over and it’s only going to add to the brew of concepts and thought.

Ribbon farm did a yearly round up post of all his top posts of the year, that alone is going to be bulging with knowledge and thought.

So go back to january and I’m blogging and doing insane archiving and themes and threads are starting to get out of control on this blog I need to try and bring them together I’m kind of like an amateur $2 guru, I don’t really know what I’m talking about on my blog, I just talk and hope to become less wrong.

There comes a day when music and money and girls just don’t matter. I would have guru’ed up fully by then anyway. Why rush it?

I remember Ambrozia and the wild tension between us, but what of it? Am I dead already? Let that matter some other time.

Remember that Cranberries song? My father, my father, he liked me . . .

Almost awkwardly desperate, but isn’t that really all we are? Here I am, I’m about to die, did you know that my special moments were special? Fancy that.

You’re going to die. It brings your life meaning, you only live once. If you want to start to understand life, realise that one day it ends, and go from there. So what’s on Romantech’s $2 Guru menu? It’s all art and philosophy here.

Choice – is the only thing we have control over, so it defines us. I choose to write, because I choose to think, and I try to understand.

Narratives – Narratives represent how choices are depicted – narratives can be goldilocks and the 3 bears, the hare and the tortoise, or it can be the expectation that you get a job, partner with the opposite sex and have a nice normal family and life

Characters – I just came up with that . . . but I didn’t finish this sentence! Characters, within a narrative are defined by their choices. I think that’s what I was on

Enjoyment – motivations. resolutions? Understanding enjoyment and what it is. I had the same thing earlier with “fun” but I think fun is a type of enjoyment, when we try to understand enjoyment more deeply we see that having fun isn’t the only way to have enjoyment.

Reality vs. Fantasy – this is an ongoing fight that has threatened to erupt once again. Are you better grimly confronting reality or disappearing into a complete fantasy, or obviously – now it comes to me – where is the balance that is optimum?

There is a factor . . . in the balance of you and everybody else.

There are 2 you’s, the you you are to you, and the you you are to everybody else, the public you. What matters most, that you’re true to yourself or you’re true to an idealised perception? Or, not even an idealised perception, just the truth that who you are in your head and who you are perceived to be can never be truly reconciled.

This is pretty abstract because it comes down to the concept of how an individual perceives himself to be perceived, if you accept that these are 2 different realities than what allegiance to you bare to each one?

Are you you for selfish reasons or do you exist only at the intersection of how those who surround you define you?

Who defines who you are? You define yourself by your choices, isn’t that the whole idea this blog is going on? But those choices take place in a context of compromise that is society, the whole of civilization is a compromise of conflicts vying for dominance.

I’m not sure if that recap will be any good, while I was away I was all off away and on about some concept of non existence, because non existence is nothing, there is only existence, and therefore a reality of what that existence is. Does it want to exist? Yes, because it does. Why does it want to exist?

Because it exists to change. Evolution and progress are agents for change whether objectively considered good or bad. Change is purpose in itself. Does existence want to change? Well yes and no, the point is, it does change. And if it changes there must be some driver of that change, the evolutionary, progressive nature that is life, it must exist otherwise nothing would change. So there is a reason for that driver of change to exist, what is it?

My concept of god is that there is a reason that this happens. If there was no external force or purpose, then nothing would change. It would just exist. The fact that change occurs, shows evidence of a force in action.

If it didn’t exist it wouldn’t have meaning, but because it does, it means that change reality, it is a binary code of changing and not changing. There is no binary between existing and non existing. You exist, and then you change your existence.

The force that acts upon reality to change existence is the presence of god. We can’t know why so many things are, they are in the mind of god, slowly they are unravelled by science, the character of the machanics, but little of the purpose.

We didn’t mention above the concept of the unknowable. God is the unknowable, the unknowable allows us to set realistic boundaries on existence, but in the past, people called this the mystery of god, and nothing has really has changed.

Evolution and conflict and progress exist but we don’t know why, it’s not that only god knows, but that nobody knows, but whatever it is, god is good as any other label to describe what it is that seems to drive the universe on.

I can’t help but feel that if change exists it is taking everything somewhere with it. Where is it going? Why?

That is the unknowable, the unanswerable and has no meaning, perhaps you need to leave god to do it’s thing and do what you feel is what you should do within the confines of that.

But that’s the point – enjoyment that asks nothing of anyone, yet holds out joy. I don’t ask people to read my blog, I write and blog because I question. I question and I long to understand. Now, I go back to one of my favourite topics, girls, to illustrate my point.

Girls are basically one of life’s greatest joys, there’s just something about them that is awesome, not just them being hot, and scoring them.

For a blogger who is a thinker and ponderer, there is a kind of uncritical logic to getting up in the morning and pestering women to sleep with you all day, every day. But I question. Who does that make you if you’re wandering around being sexually obnoxious? This calls out the Don Draper figure once again. Don draper carries a dignity that means he doesn’t have to be obnoxious to women, so nor would he be.

I have made very strong commitments in order to get my money, I made choices there. I made commitments to doing business with dignity, which meant some very hard knocks which I got back up from.

It was hard. But I kept telling myself I was doing my best, I was just trying to do the right thing.

I’m not too lazy to chase average girls, you’ve got to remember girls have feelings. Chasing an average girl just for sex isn’t acting with any dignity, but Don Draper would do it anyway. That doesn’t make it right. But Don Draper doesn’t really chase average girls. He just wants sex and gets it.

But as we slip and slide within the archetype, we look for a comparison. The pain of honouring my business commitments with dignity when I had made mistakes and poor judgement made me into someone who got it right.

Part of me thinks I am just too scared of hot girls. A hot girl will give you both barrels. I like to write about myself because I like to think and ponder such things. When you come to understand be informed about your choices you are empowered.

If I walked around being sexually obnoxious, I may luck in, but I’m still a guy who walks round being sexually obnoxious. Would I choose that? Well what if, theoretically, it worked, and you managed to meet really great girls? Let’s just admit it, of course I would. But more likely, that’s not how it would go.

What’s the point I’m making here? I know I was trying to show you why blogging

I’m pretty well positioned, so I continue to get into my video projects, all this footage I only sort of remembered that I had from NSU is like, well, I’m pretty cheap and I can do a lot with all this in terms of milking it for as much as possible.

Not only am I gonna get the 2 juice videos done, but I got 3 little mini clips I’m milking out – the sax jam at lot44 with micah, then footage from that night to make a short short circuit clip, and also all the upfm beat dungeon endorsements we got.

But the juice of life is still the one I’m working on mainly now. So I do the full my source edit of the clip and then mash it with my outsources, and then I give it to karl to throw down some animations, and then we go to the next clip, and I’ll just plunder the first clip, and mash it all in again, but I’ll be throwing in more of the upfm stuff.

Then I gotta do something funny. But I also gotta do stuff for Kings and Polyps because they’re coming out real soon! I need to get my videos in sync with tunes when they come out. That’s why we can’t faff about. Especially with the dnbb stuff like weirdos and whatever else don’t get decent videos just a basic one for animals and some simple, lush concept for paper tigers. Hopefully I’ll recover this tour footage. That should last me out for all the stuff on release. The Polyps video will just be hardcore nature and microbial business.

So as long as I get my tour footage back, and I do my little kings routine with the crowns and the chess theme, we got ideas for 2 good videos and those other 4 to rattle off. Lots of music videos. What’s our budget again? $900? I could do 10 videos for that cost, let’s go! Don’t be lazy, get these guys going for it.

But I have to do something funny too. I can always just do something funny but we have to push the narrative . . .

Oh look it’s seth godin.

Are you leaving behind an easily found trail of accomplishment?

The first thing is more difficult: If the work you do isn’t worth collating and highlighting, you probably need to be doing better work.

I’m right into the collating and understanding that but it does make you think about what you’re doing in a different way. What have you done?

It’s what I’m doing. And the more I do, the more I sense that I need to really take hold of the narrative, because romantic feelings and atmosphere can drive potent narratives. I started thinking about the power of those narratives, they ask why in a world of possibilities some things happen the way they do.

I need to start drawing out the narrative more, and trying to understand why it exists. I think this was a key concept to be revealed in the friction between fantasy and reality. Do you just unravel with this concept in your head of how life is meant to be on some romantic level, or do you continually try and force it into reality when perhaps it just doesn’t exist except for in the eyes of a wide eyed teenager.

I have to get out there with the DAW and the camera rolling there’s no way of explaining except for stories, the narrative.

I want to keep rolling out the music video but I have get into the narrative. I’m thinking about the preacher, the kiddie, the puppet concept with all these stuffed toys leading hipster lifestyles. There’s lots of narrative driven stuff I can do but I also thinking about the noob beats stuff – less pretentious narrative stuff that introduces me etc.

I think we want to be aware of how we can do pirate stuff and the new beats stuff in one hit.

I see this concept of putting yourself out there in order to attract people to your ideas but it’s about important ideas that are expressed clearly and powerfully. Maybe I have to rediscover my space captain narrative where I’m exploring the landscape of auckland to understand how to get the vibe on.

You can’t just stand around, you can’t grab the spotlight and say nothing, what are you saying? That you rise above the petty malicious bitching and entitlement, this is preacher mathias, firing full on in the humility and suffering of the lord jesus christ, in the midst of life we are in death, who we are is nothing as a number but everything in the glory of god.

I live this life where I’m on this digital wave and I do alright because people want to be and do things and I help them with that because I understand what it is to want to be recognised and appreciated for who you are and as technology and humanity grinds forward, this manifests even more and it’s interesting the relationship between individuality and the existence of society.

There are distinctive artistic tangents to this as well as in business. That’s what I was saying before. I seem to get it when it comes to making money but not when it comes to making art. How can I talk, how can I speak to people with art?

Because I portray a character swings between ambition and narcissism back to humility and empathy? Difficult. I really have always liked the fact that because I have a job I’m not really reliant on my art in a commercial sense, I can do as I please. Then there was that DJ concept that I’m just with you on the ride. This is your dream. I kind of a brand as a companion rather than a hero.

That’s what I’m seeing with my camera, getting out and getting info people want. Getting a bit more experience as a spectator and documenter rather than being all in on the action. It’s kind of extending the new beats concept to filming and making beats and being like that, doing it in one night.

Experimenting with what people want to see that I can give them. Is it funny, is it documentative, is it music, is it advice or thoughts? Is it branding? Now that we’ve found video, what’s your dick like?

Man that post yesterday on narrative and philosophy was bringing mad guru game up in this.

It doesn’t really eventuate to a lot of conclusions really, but I try, I just diddle on my journal it’s better than TV or games, I’m into my head man. I’m an artist, ok?

It’s all reduced to conflict and conflict is a story, is part of a narrative, is life and can be expressed by art.

Conflict is so natural and desirable that you would never want to destroy your enemies because as long as they test you, you are being challenged to be a better version of yourself in order to come against the conflicts that are inevitably in cycle for anybody.

You have to accept conflict as natural and as artist, a natural and essential part of the narrative.

Grabbing for all the goodies and harshly labouring and gloating in victory and kicking the enemy when they’re already down, none of that character is appropriate, because you’re just fueling more unresolved conflict. You’re on the conflict treadmill. But you need to be telling stories. What?

Well the stories are the natural descriptions of the conflicts? I mean the choices are the stories and the stories are art so therefore choices are art?

Well conflict is inevitable so your choices completely define everything. So what do you weigh your choices on? Experience and perception? Understanding?

Understanding is a lot of hard work.

See I’m not guru enough yet because half the time I don’t make sense. Well tell us what you want?

To be relevant, but the thing is as an artist, you gotta do you. But what if people don’t like you? Well what do you really want, there it is, the choice again, do you want to be an artist or do you just want people to like you? Do you enjoy the feeling or do you just feel like you need it, like a cigarette, or a drink, or a chocolate bar, a root, or a piss?

You want to be relevant.

Not famous, but aware and having some kind of association by which you have insight, knowledge, common experiences with others.

Well you’ve got to be so in their face with what you’re doing. Your message has to be strong, and I may not be top notch guru material because I’m not all about clobbering messages, and dualities, dichotomies and dialectics, I don’t know what’s going on. I just probably know more than most dudes walking around on the street. I know that’s not that humble, but I’m aware it’s just an assumption.

Where’s the clear message, where’s the clear story?

Your conflicts are your story. Your conflicts and the choices, your agency, that changes the nature of those conflicts.

I’m not preaching the gospel, I don’t have a dogmatic approach. How do you brand for an audience if you don’t have a message and once you’re refining your message for appeal isn’t it immediately diluted? That’s how I feel, I’ll spout nonsense on my blog night and day because it’s my right as an artist, and I’m more interested in expressing myself and understanding than summoning a pack of zombies to follow my word.

What’s the manifesto?

Do we choose to define ourselves by our audience? If more people like what we do as artist, is it more meaningful? How meaningful does it have to be to matter to you?

It’s like wealth. It’s relative. Do you feel rich? Do you feel lucky?

“Do you feel lucky” is obviously a theologically loaded philosophical proposition. Do you feel lucky, IE do you believe in fate/predestination?

But if you believe like I do that the universe has a will, then is there such thing as luck, if that’s the story already told? I think more realistically whether clint eastwood shoots anyone is not something that really matters in the greater scheme of the universe. But that’s simply just not true, because everything matters. If Clint Eastwood shoots somebody then it was meant to be for unknowable reasons beyond our comprehension.

Do you feel lucky? It’s the choices we make when faced with conflict that define us.

I choose to blog to resolve the conflicts of the unknowable, that some things we will never understand and we’re better to stay within the bounds of what we know.

And god spoke saying, go ye with a restful mind that these tasks I have set for you will give you rest, and you shall find peace in the everlasting kingdom.

“Different day, same shit, until one day, different shit. But still shit.”

Why am I not a normal person, a normal musician or artist who would blog relevant items? It’s just not really what I think about.

Creating art – expressions that depict and describe experiences – seems like the only relevant response to existence in my experience. Understanding is an undertaking in itself. The deepest complexities of existence are so deep to ponder that you have to be an artist to try and make sense of some of your experiences, or insight you’ve received into the complex nature of all things. How can you understand what it’s like to exist in the world without art?

You can run around and get all the money and all the girls, but what does it mean? If you define yourself by money or girls, you’re always losing the game to someone with more money or better girls. Life can’t be that one dimensional, money and girls – if you see them as just money and girls, it’s reductive of the real benefits derived from working and relationships.

Fame, recognition, respect, acclaim, is divorced from the merit from which it derives if you merely see it in terms of outcomes. A story is about development and resolution, if it started at the end there would be no story, just an outcome, and an outcome existing in such isolation is meaningless, and it doesn’t reflect a non static reality.

It’s not about money or girls or recognition and artistic realisation, it’s about your constant journey in regards to those aspects of our immediately present existence.

I been connecting with a lot more people recently. Probably I don’t know, somethings going on, maybe it’s portentous.

And I have to get organised for my tour. Like I’m definitely away for a week doing at least 4 gigs so I need to get my camera situation sorted out, I might need that 60d NOW.

I don’t care man. I want to film some stuff and maybe play some gigs while I’m away.

I key mix now man, it’s all good. Like, 90% of my mixes are pretty sweet – I think just particularly because of what I play being that I’m into deep melodies, my stuff HAS to be in key to work, and all of a sudden your sets are all making sense like a pro DJ, it all just seems to work.

It’s not as important as beat matching obviously, but at this (late) stage of the game, for me, it’s massive. It hasn’t made me a much better DJ but it has made me much less crap. I would have to work hard to play sets that were poor now, but I still think it might be awhile until I can bring beatmatching to the upfm show, 2 shows now, upfm and bassdrive, man! Well, the investment in DJing is getting quite deep, so we need to follow through.

I was just thinking about an army of dogs who live in grey lynn park and have secret bases an army ranks.

Do you go and tell a story about a dog army? What does it mean?

There is nothing but the story. The narrative.

In my philosophy, all things are at all times in conflict, everywhere. It is natural, and the suppression of natural expressions of conflict is detrimental. Conflict isn’t bad in itself unless it results in destruction, which is also natural and not necessarily bad. As long as you understand the resolution of every conflict is only transporting you to the next conflict, infinitely. How you deal with conflict expresses more than the details or subject of any conflict, regardless.

The stories and narratives that give our lives meaning are built on conflict.

Man I am clueless today. I hear the “voice of god” telling me to sort it out, but I really can’t manage it, like there’s some frailty to this paradigm I can’t quite comprehend. What I mean is that there’s much more than what I perceive, this world where you go to school and go to work and fuck your wife and go on holiday, and have kids and go back to work and not work and fuck your wife and not fuck your wife, and raise your kids and not raise your kids until you die. I’m certain there’s more.

The more I dwell on the thought that the thing that allows to have thoughts, that is, my brain, is not truly who I am but, simply a tool of other forces such as your genes that merely want to endure.

My body moves my brain around, sends it information and alerts it to threats. My brain allows my body to perceive complex notions of how systems work. Who really is me? If me doesn’t matter, outside of my physical existence and my mental existence, is there only my genetic existence?

The point is, without needing to go too deeply into it all is that I want to survive. How I survive in a modern context is governed by choices that are responses to conflict. Conflicts and the choices made to resolve those conflicts are the essence of stories. and stories are art.

It’s about what you truly want at whatever level you define yourself to be. What you truly want defines you and defines your story.

A story can often be more about discovering you wanted something different to what you thought you wanted. That’s why I’m interested in stories about fame and recognition because I think young people get sold on an image of winning approval and recognition through fame. I just want to be relevant.

Your physical self wants to eat and sleep and sex and maybe run around a bit sometimes. Your mental self wants to be valued and to have mastery and control, to exert dominance and amend the conditions to your favour.

How can you write drum and bass and do stupid youtube videos and a blog when you’re just some puppet to your genes? Well if a puppet is what I am, then I’m a puppet. My tunes and videos and blogs are reflective of my experience in this existence.

I want to get all the money and girls and attention, but so does everybody else! Society can’t function purely on the basis of our egos all crawling all over each other, clambering for gratification of base needs. But the fact that I’m aware of this makes it even more important that I try to comprehend it in a creatively expressive manner.

Is what I’m saying relevant? Does it mean anything to anybody else? Maybe that’s the question I should be asking.

Social manipulation is the currency of our times. In times past, larger more aggressive males held power. Now it is the socially agile and adaptable who exert power. How do you express the conflict of our present situation, it’s complexities, without stories and art?

As you try to climb the ladder, getting more money and better girls and more artistic manifestation, you just place yourself on a linear continuum, continually cycling through new conflicts, stories, one after the other, endlessly. Different day, same shit, until one day, different shit. But still shit.

How do you relate to your problems knowing they are basically endless? Well some problems are worse than others in regards to maintaining a minimum standard, but really when understand each conflict as a story it’s different . . .

More posts having to come out, just started way too many rambling posts and now I’m kind of worried not only will they make my blog boring and self indulgent as ever, but I won’t even have the chance to try and “take away” anything from writing screeds of thousands of words about archives and narratives and facebook and values, it all just kind of melds into a generalised artsy intellectual brown sludge.

But today we reflect on our archival narrative in a broader context and manage to get king arthurs knights running round after the grail which is pretty big, especially when it goes all illuminati with pagan occultists versus insane christian eugenicists.

But anyway I wasgetting started on a major new archiving push, mainly because I’ve been working too hard again and I couldn’t seem to get any art happening, even though I seemed poised to kick it up a level and actually have videos and songs rolling out.

Getting the rhythm right with money art and girls . . . 2 out of 3 ain’t bad? Fast, good, cheap, chose any two?

Why can you never get 3 going right at the same time?

It’s like playing the drums, I was always terrible at playing the drums, I’m naturally pretty unco-ordinated. Well it’s just another riff on the juggling metaphor isn’t it, trying to keep all your balls in the air? Doing the kick snare thing isn’t thaaat hard, but once you try and get the hat going and do rolls well forget about it.

I was a bit disappointed you might say, I thought I had more photos and a couple of my drawings were missing and I thought I would pull more old video tape. I thought I had a tape of us playing in palmerston north, but I guess not. I’ve got no performances of reality compound.

But I found tonnes of writing. I guess I was bummed because you can’t really tell quick stories with writing, but then I just turned up the view that it just means more challenging and different ways to tell stories. I got a bit silly hoping I could make the big production, and then I kind of lost the meaning, was a doing a time capsule or is this artist branding?

Well it’s both, it’s not one thing, it’s 2 things. What people who like my songs and videos see, won’t be what i keep for my personal consideration art and personal reflection aren’t one and the whole thing.

But the good thing was we got into some real dense thematic stuff when the archive allows me to see my own journey and what that story represents.

So we process all this stuff. Boxes of old photos, school reports, drawings etc.

I think the huge thing we didn’t just say . . . is that when you archive, you come to terms with what’s happened to you. As you understand your journey, you accept it and let the crap go.

Sometimes you only you got to a point with a feeling until you dropped it somewhere, and when you pick it up again, in your wisdom and hindsight you’re able to let it go.

I wondered what the point of it all was, did I have something to prove to myself? That I’d had an amazing life, but I simply forgot because I’m always to busy fretting and pondering?

When we have all the raw digital material we can look at what kind of story we want to tell. I’m working off a chronological tree, which cover certain subjects, eras and projects. I will add the content to those as appropriate.

I will also be building rankings for best pics, best songs, best stories, best nights, mad lists, that another kind of grid we’re mapping on.

But then I want to do a highlights reel, the superquick guide, and just to get meta we should have several different versions – same story but told in a different way – history channel doco, e channel style, sitcom, kids show, gritty drama or whatever . . .

. . .

Well I might have wanted to, but i don’t know if we’ll have enough footage, I was a bit inevitably disappointed like i spent the other night getting excited I could build some kind of time machine but I got a bit carried away.

But it allowed me to see I’m doing 2 things, what I’m doing artistically and personally are actually 2 different things.

In art you have the potential to use mystery, shadows and darkness to your advantage. Archiving is also a branding exercise and often a story is told by what is not present, this exercise is about seeing what I’ve got and what story I can tell with it. There are questions for every artist of who are you, and where did you come from, and the brand narrative you want to create.

What is that brand narrative?

What subtext is created by the story as it is told?

What does it mean if I say that I was a smart, weird little kid that fought to become one of the cool guys just to unfold into a world of music, drugs, capers, of internet culture intrigue, of drama in the city, the times of the era, and finally my absolution through hard toil to build my business, that the prodigal son would return and be forgiven.

I think in a way your flaws make you more who you are than anything else, that is essential to the narrative.

Archiving gives me the raw content I have available to deal with the presentation of reality and fashion it into a artistic vibe. Sometimes I just feel as if I can’t beat my own personal vibe so I may as well go with it. Sure, I can be funny, but the fact that I am so naturally doubtful, analytical, worrisome, changeable, is a part of my art. If people like my music and my writing and my videos, it doesn’t mean that most days I’m not straining for meaning to a point that most people would find labourious, but that’s just me.

It’s dramatic in it’s own way, that I have artistic license to indulge the fantastic edge of the reality I experience. What is it?

If I have a good job and I make music, write and do videos, and I have stories of crazy gigs, drug dealing, myspace adventures, I’m stylish and tasteful, it makes me more human and relatable to admit I am anxious and prone to dwelling on the neurotic, overwrought.

I think that’s why it’s “reality” compound, I’m halfway between a character and a real person, the fact that I am real and have reality based reactions creates an instant depth. Most reality shows are fiction pretending to be reality. My concept is reality pretending to be a stupid youtube act.

So in fact the only way to forgive my indiscretions of not being a courageous hero, but instead racked with self doubt is because I am real and when I excel, I attain a true and dramatic triumph, and tell the story of why some people can never quite find their peace.

I think that is the longer arc of the project.

That we must resolve our hopes and dreams into something we can live with. We have a search party which themes on great quests.

And that’s when the thematic concepts kicked off.

The search for the vibe, is like the search for the holy grail, it’s a search for something that represents an ideal and yet the narrative never completely exposes to the characters the futility of searching for an ideal as embody in a concept of the grail. The grail is the powdered tiger penis again, a concept that has been forced to take a tangible form in order to characterize the narrative.

The powdered tiger penis represents the possibility of power that exists in secret and cunning ways, but the power itself reperesents not grinding up a tigers dick but a zen state of serenity and purity from which power and mastery flows.

The Quarterback who flies the f-14 is the ubermensch Percival, the brave and honourable knight of romantic antiquity that quests for the purity of the grail, this links with don quixote who has made guest appearances, and the ill fate of lost quests for nobility. With the grail you’ve also got a knights templar thing going, throwing open the doors on any conspiracy you like, not to mention the full gamut of religious metaphors.

You got knights templar illuminati cats questing for relic power, and they’re connect with act party eugenicists but I was just trying to work it out. So there’s sects trying to blend into society and fascist right wing christians want to speed up evolution by experimenting with eugenics, and shutting down occultists/pagans who preserve ancient ways. It’s kind of hard to tell really.

You achieve progressive, advanced, capitalisitc civilization through christian organisation, but this becomes twisted into arrogant power crazy eugenicists, who want to crush dissent so they can achieve more progress in evolution, but the concept is totally flawed because it’s not about any kind of adaptation. Are the pagan occultists non progressive? We know they may invoke rituals and individual expression and wild sex parties but it’s hard to understand what they want other than to be destroyed by the christian eugenicists.

Well I guess that kind of got crazy but we’re getting far enough for now. When we realise right wing eugenicists in NZ are trying to get the powdered tiger penis / holy grail etc because they don’t want free individuals who don’t love backing the all blacks going around thinking ideas that are not favourable to the advancements of eugenics, then we’re ready to go deeper.

So the powdered tiger penis is just waiting to be revealed as the grail, and the quest alive as ever. The grail, the fountain of youth, represents power in energy and potential renewed.

It also says a very central message – that anyone can be powerful within themselves, that’s the carrot that is held out to us, and it is a real carrot, but capitalism keeps repeatedly beating our heads with the stick so we never have the chance to accept we are powerful.

There are conditions that create the society we live in and I despise the suggestion that this is natural, but just like all kinds of evolution, so must power adapt. Power used to be principally about physical strength, stamina and constitution as it still is in the animal world, yet in our world the concept of power changes, and insightful thought processes as intuitive interaction with technology becomes far more valuable than physical strength.

Ok I went totally off point then, but then well all our message is is some revenge of the nerds, trading places, vibe but what does it really say? That in life we are all relative to our circumstances? Yes so we have to try our best, don’t let some corny rich good looking smart arse pricks act like the run the game, give them a go, fuck them and their arrogance, to think, to assume they have rights others don’t because they were born with money or looks. And that is occultist, pagan, anarchist, chaotic, talk, christianity and media has been about control.

You can’t be controlled by the pervasive suggestion you fit into the system.

I am the imperfect character. I am the genetically unfit, but I refuse to be told I can’t be beautiful and rich and famous and talented. But it’s a vain and desperate and empty world, so you peel back the layers.

To me it’s a very defining thing to bring this richness to my character, I depict that guy who’s just never happy with what he’s got, not just wanting more, but meant for it. It shows my flaw is that while I flout my disrespect for it, I also want desperately to accepted by it, so the long arc is about accepting what your choices really are. When you decide to let go of the value you placed on fame and recognition and respect, you make room for something more important.

The search party goes deep. The search for the vibe goes backwards and forwards. We’re pulling up stuff into the narrative and we can do as we like with it, if we need to sauce it up then we can.

I remember learning that with RC, that if you couldn’t throw down like a boss, the next best thing was to go to the depths of confession, and much amusement could be had with the character for whom nothing is ever acceptable.

People are supposed to see me becoming indignant and petty and see this behaviour in themselves and others, ad reflect on what the true value of seeking recognition, and the game you buy into.

But yeah if the powdered tiger penis turns out to be on some holy grail deal, when you start to wonder about why the space captain has been sent from another dimension well you got to wonder about what kind of vibe we’re talking about. I’m just a marketing guy who makes drum and bass. This is getting insane.

Hi I’m Dr. Matthew Turner and I’m one of the senior research team here at Romantech Group – an interdisciplinary project dedicated to new research initiatives.

More people are becoming interested and curious about the kind of work we perform here. We experienced a higher average number of visitors this week so we thought perhaps we’d share what we see as the Romantech Group vision. Clear sightedness in pursuit of excellence.

To the diligent, nothing is difficult.

(that’s secret code by the way in case you didn’t know, for when secret wolf team alpha eagle squad force gets the signal to carry out a E0S79YT)

The Romantech Group is based on 4 steps of a 3 Sided pyramid. 4 steps: Timeless, Urban, Underground, and Romance, on 3 sides Ca$hmoney, Girls, and Art.

(This is such important exposition stuff here you guys oh my god sorry for talking but omg you guys)

A lot of our research is based around funding certain projects which we see as contributing to the broader vision of the Romantech Group.

So what do people want to read about? What would be a good blog? Something that was going on, basically. What’s going on? Well you have to have a look don’t you. We decided to form a search party. And now the audience knows about the sinister research laboratory.

So the search team sets off, and it all goes gonzo because the search team are all wrapped up in their own nonsense, what’s worth searching out? Space Captain Romantech has crashed on earth and established a camp living amongs the native inhabitants. He must go out and find the vibes to take him back to his home planet, but he also uses online media to convey messages back to his home world. We don’t know why he crashed here, was he set up?

So the captain must go out and explore. In fact “Dark Matter” does has that vibe of the – what was the idea? They have some kind of virus code on a disc – the scientists, but then the program is unleashed and to many funky vibes blow the core reactor and scientists and possibly funky radioactive ravers are forced to rave out.

So you can see there is definitely sinister suspicious activity happening in the laboratory, and that there’s probably something afoot.

The search team are searching and they are reporting information. So I dress up in my spacesuit and I go and I search.

I’m space captain Romantech, and my ship has crashed and I am looking for vibes so I can refuel my ship and get back to Planet Romantech and our plan to throw down vibes across the universe in support of vibe friendly lifestyles. So we need to contact locals about underground vibes, underground parties, and underground art, and if they know about any underground parties and if we can come.

I’m the space captain. And I’m coming to get underground and get all the vibes, and discover the people and talk to them and stand in a closet if it’s funny and try to kick off #brooming. Standing in a closet is about to go global because your basically just nicely put away where you don’t have to see or feel or be.

In the Romantech Group lab (what’s the connection, you guys?) it gets kind of freaky. But this is science, it’s unwavering gaze never broken, and never wavering in it’s effort to snatch a glimpse of the truth, no fear how ghastly. A better mousetrap.

We’re trying to get people to come here and sign up for terrible scientific trials to be carried out so that they go into a daze and think they’re like y’know, desert warriors and space captains and DJ’s and all sorts.

They become highly susceptible. Open to suggestion.

You say, sign up for the newsletter, get downloads and stuff. It’ll never work. What’s in the newsletter? The music downloads.

It has to be like the wrestling was, like free stuff on TV was boring, only on the special nights was there a proper fight. That’s pretty complicated. People don’t want to read a whole lot of junk about space men and scientists on your blog, that’s why they sign up for the newsletter.

But honestly someone will be all like, what’s up with the space man, and they won’t be ready to find out I come from another planet.

SO there’s parallels with lord jonathan who is also on an adventure. And also space captain Romantech might be a bit of a hipster space captain, like he’s like, whatever, y’know, where are the underground parties at?

I’m an alien okay, so just sort yourself out.

Look don’t have a problem with me because I’m from another planet, okay? Like, I just want to party, I just want to coonect with some real artists, artists with integrity.

Talking to a hottie: “Look you don’t understand, I’m an alien okay so I need to make contact with your home base.”

“Our people need to connect. Give me your number. You wanna know what a tentacle feel like?”

And there was going to be ziggy or some guy on the inanimate disembodied computer guy tip. So I could let him know my reports on the humans and he could make suggestions that could get interesting. We want to get interesting. We want to find the interesting.

Space captain romantech will have to put together a search party to provide initial reports, surveillance and interesting intelligence pertinent to bringing the vibe back.

What do you mean about what I mean about the Season Finale? This is actually where you find out the weird secrets of Romantech Island, and like, tonnes of gripping revelations that explain everything. I just totally need a a top secret research facility with sinister clipboard holding scientists, that’s all, and we’re good to go.

Have you got one I can borrow? It’s just for the opening scene, and like the season cliffhanger at the end.

So, I experienced a fleeting moment of freedom when I started to figure wow, hey, we’ve gotten through a lot of rambling, it’s good we can start really trying to work out what else we can do except . . . until – we apply a concentrated effort to start writing decent blogs.

My first strategy is heavy editing, and less pondering – if we can crack a conclusion that can be thrown around why faff about with all the theoretical workings, going off on tangents with apologist anecdotes, why bother, if you try and say something rather than mumbling across multiple supporting paragraphs before you get to your point, you might come up with a more hard hitting post, that gets to people.

Also I have a habit of smashing one post into another, because I’m bored and just want to post my adsense ads up so I can squeal when I make $2. Just like this one, writing half a post about one thing and then writing the other half about something else, though I like the car crash sensibility when the blog suddenly veers off in another direction. Sure, be stylistically fluid but get concise, get audience focused and draw on what people want to read about not just some personal crisis I want to get off my chest.

This seems like a bit of a series finale, I reckon. Mainly because I feel like I’ve got a lot of rambling off my chest – once I got into the gender politics I figured I just ramble on about anything, and it’s hard to appreciate what it means to know what you think. It’s also because I’m keen to slow down a bit, I’m getting more and more confident that more money is not what I’m looking for right now, which is a relief. It’s knowing that doing less work is actually working out better, and so I’m starting to be less anxious about working less, even though I do waste more time, because i’m only kidding myself thinking extra money is not a waste of time.

It’s like my bank account has put me in the friend zone. No matter how close we get, we’ll never have any “real” fun.

In fact, it’s not the money, it’s I just I want to do something. Making money is the easiest and strongest way for me to feel like I’m getting something done, but it’s . . . I haven’t found the balance yet, maybe I need to keep readjusting my business effort down until such a point where I do feel bored and poor. Because feeling anxious about being bored and poor and actually being bored and poor aren’t always consistent.

But okay if it is a season finale, I want it to be a bit like Lost or something, where it just blows your mind. That’s why wanted this exposition at a research facility. But the producers are telling me we can’t afford all that they know I’ve blown out the budget, and they need to put this to bed, they need this thing in the can with a pretty bow on it.

I’m sure you’re all keen to find out what happens in the big fight between Fantasy and Reality. It’s what the fans deserve, okay? This is my art you’re talking about, if you want art, then I need a fucking top secret research facility, okay or you’ll never put this story straight.

I didn’t think Reality had the chops, but it’s a matter of whether fantasy can be beaten. Maybe Reality won’t lose, but can it win?

What about all the loose ends? The Friday Night Killer, the elusive desert fox, my therapy, what exactly happened there? In the fullness of time alright? Let’s just say it’s not in the budget right now, because we can’t afford an exposition with a top secret research facility with scientists you know that ONLY TIES THE WHOLE THING TOGETHER you RETARDS! God, I’m working with imbeciles. Retarded autistic baboon children with rabies and aids. That’s who I work with.

These people don’t seem to get it. They don’tunderstand. This is my blog, this is my art, and if you’re going to put a bow on anything in a can in a bed, my vision has an exposition with a frickin science laboratory, top secret research facility SO SORT IT OUT!!!

Okay. Thank you. God! Rolling with the top secret research facility cold open in three, two . . .

. . .

I would contend we have a very high level of research going on at the Romantech blog, although we have our issues like any other facility would face, we face challenges in problem solving and creative provision of solutions.

We have our psychotherapy centre as you will be aware, and we have research on cultural issues also being conducted.

I am aware some serious projects are going ahead in the labs at this time, but of course considering the important and broad ranging nature of the research we’re doing

In fact I might even start a think tank. Y’know? Like just get millions of dollars for like doing “research”, y’know?

We could provide a distinct lack of documented evidence of climate change. That seems like an easy job, just do a quick look around the house. Nope, no climate change there. Or we could research why Bob Geldof doesn’t like mondays. Maybe because . . . well it’s certainly not a straightforward question. $10 million should get us started nicely.

It will be the Romantech Group. We’ll have sinister meetings with bodyguards and stuff.

But for now you have to basically be excited about all the research we’re publishing, case studies, and some really interesting emulation experiments we’ve taken place.

That’s right we’ve take place. The other researchers and I happened earlier. It’s very modern technology and it’s under wraps but some of our resident fellows will presenting some of their research so you’ve got to put up with it.

Obviously the research is around observing the experiments going on around the facility with perceptions of reality and fantasy on the patients.

The results have been interesting, the iterations in perception of the patients is most revealing.

Brain transplants, conspiracies with neanderthal bloodlines, flying pyramids, tribal warrior fantasies . . .

Here we’re researching a choice . . . you always have a choice.

Now this next bit is an awesome sinister exposition where you like I’ve been cloned and somehow i’m all like cloned up in pods or like little weird kind of booths where I’m all hooked up with wires to my brain and you can see in one booth I believe I am a desert warrior, in another I’m the detective looking for the friday night killer, in another I’m a drum and bass DJ, space captain crash landed on earth, hamlet, in one booth I think I’m talking to my therapist, in the next, another clone of me is talking to god . . .

Maybe it could be shown with sinister scientists watching monitors so you can show what’s going on, but we don’t have to reveal that their are even clones. Forget I even mentioned clones. All you see is that I’m in this facility being tested, obviously playing out all the different roles of the season, so it’s totally a bit of an OMG moment.

MAN DID THIS SHIT JUST GET CRAZY WEIRD OR WHAT, RIGHT YOU GUYS?

shut up it’s not a “dream all along”! They’re clones in a frickin research facility okay?

Now we’re doing a flashback review so we can go back to like way way back and then bring the narrative together in the end where they break into the facilityor out of it or something I dunno, you’ll have to find out. It’s the big romantech season finale, okay? Like wow.

The investigation continues, the investigators turn over the facts as they’ve been described over again and again in their heads.

No body, no evidence, no crime. It just doesn’t feel right. Maybe they just haven’t begun to ask the right questions.

I was worked up about the DJing situation, yo. I know this one. It’s the one where you think a situation is fine and you don’t pay attention and you get a nasty reminder that all gardens need weeding. All trash needs taking out. But how ugly would it get?

In days past I would have tried to plan a way around or through, but I’m smarter than that now. You need resources to make moves and I don’t have the resources available. I see them constantly, these dudes with their dreams, they don’t have the resources they need.

I dunno I just . . . basically, there life may be over. They may have served their purpose for the man at the top. There’s only so much use a person can serve really. But who was at the top in this equation?

Blogging is okay but it’s really not. Blogging is my creative cave from where I spring like the tiger munching on errant villagers which fall to my prey, but it’s been awhile since I tasted fresh meat and living in a cave isn’t exactly a dream come true. So why do I do it? Because you’ve got to be inspired to make art. You need to have that feeling that some art is going to come out of you.

My music was all about narratives, so here I am back writing. But the music I’m writing is not perfectly suited for the dance floor, but it does tell stories, and that’s why I feel I need video on my side. To me, that’s my art form. Storytelling. The music and the video together make a story. I mean that’s probably not that revolutionary to you, but to me, I never really though until the last few years that I would ever want to do video stuff because well – didn’t I know it was going to be challenging? But it’s important to have a vision for your art, it comes down to doing it out of inspiration, not seeking admiration.

That’s serious art. When I pack my set full of drum and bass bangers and not the music I truly like to play in the club, and then I get told I need to improve . . . well, I was only doing it to seek approval anyway, so why bother?

I’m working on being excited about my modesthaus videos because to me they tell a story. If I’m trying to rock the club it’s about wanting some kind of recognition – from others. Telling a story is getting recognition from yourself.

See? I’m a guru, ok? The video for “Problemantech” is really modest but it’s got themes of frustration, the appropriation of adequacy and normative behaviour. There’s a message there about projecting an image taking precedent over any requirement of actual substance to that projection.

I was going to do a video for our forthcoming track “low key” based on the raw footage I have, which is supposed to be about places amidst the night life where nothing much happens, life continues quietly. If you’re a plant in the entrance to a club, you’re existence is pretty low key. A lot of club kids walk past, and some dude probably drops an empty beer bottle behind you as he exits the club. It’s about spaces that exist where nothing much is going on.

I was going to do a video for “juice of life” where I’m an investigator on NSU’s tail. It cuts between me in a suit asking random people for info on NSU but nobody knows who he is and lo fi ripped youtube footage from NSU gigs. Again the concept is an unsolved mystery, which feeds into the underground theme of things happening below the surface that nobody is aware of. In fact I would say the video is a metaphor for trying to find underground vibes.

Buy as I’ve alluded to apocalypse now, I think the underground has dark mysteries, and though the trail runs cold, there’s the inference that something big is lurking below the surface.

I can see how I could be cobbling together a musical, with linear elements. especially if they could be arranged in different ways . . . omg . . . like the morphospace concept. Y’know just like a “pick a path” you could “play” the game as me and once I started to have say, 10 videos, I could string them together, not only into a DJ mix, but the videos would “mix” also, cutting the narrative between two separate videos to dovetail while the 2 songs mix, and you’d have a nice little half an hour “episode”.

I’d be just like R. Kelly!

See? That sounds like some art. That sounds like when I’m 60 I wanna dose up on some incredible gear and check out the mad art stories I was telling.

Here’s a bonus time lapse at the lighthouse video with some trip hop. I don’t think I’d stop short of pillaging pretty videos like this if I needed to use some more visually striking high end vibes to work into my narrative, as long as I didn’t lean too heavily, it’s just like “sampling” if you’re recontextualizing to build something new.

Especially when you sample some rich orchestral sounds or big band, you can’t make that in your bedroom any other way, and thats what using more visual footage is like, I don’t have the equipment or skill to ever shoot stuff like this that is sumptuous yet not really explicit in any narrative sense.

Night Motion Timelapse: Outer Banks from Daniel Dragon Films on Vimeo.

Power Supply, and Dark Matter will head up the B team, I will get an some outsourced help to help me work on some basic concepts when I get around to it. Power Supply could be a good one for the photos I’m collecting now, plus I could do some filming in surplustronics and similar stores so I get some movement with lots of electodes and nodes and gear.

Gonna Getcha and Pure Juice being more upbeat tunes need a more upbeat concept, you can’t just be mysterious, brooding and vague, cryptic when the video is a more funky or uplifting vibe.

Polyps is part of the home alone family so must be connected with that theme.

Beyond Faith I think will be my first opportunity to seriously approach working with outsourcers to produce something perhaps still absstract and cryptic, but a little more refined and tailored.

That’s 8 songs. The last 2 forthcoming are “Animals” and “Weirdos” which I don’t care for either a great deal, and both are heavier so again, I might wait until they are done and they can be the first 2 videos I just pay some overseas guys $100 to do. If I wanted to use them as part of a narrative, the strategy would be to make them vague but to have a narrative bridging effect where it could be used in between any two other more sinister videos as of course being heavier tunes, they are more likely to work in the set with similar tunes.

Of course I’d like to flip it and maybe get some footage and clips and edit it up and write a beat to it, but that’ll come when I’m ready to try new things to keep the momentum going.